Thursday, March 06, 2008

i have to finish rushing out alot of stuff due to tomorrow being the last day of schl for this term. i kind of like this person who is flaming my tagboard. maybe cuz whatever she say is true. firstly she scolds me a bitch, which i am more than happy to admit. finally, i get realised to become a bitch. upgrade in standard (:
then the person scolds me a loser o.O which for this week i seriously felt like one. especially after the match. then the person says i copy homework. which is so damn true. OMMYGAWD! are you me? haha!!! maybe u will let me copy urs when i cant find any to copy. (: anyway, pls change ur nick. its no longer the in word anymore, wait till i find one, i will post it up & inform you so you can be as up to date as me
(: my gawd, i am a total 自恋狂。 school's driving me crazy (:


NOTE: if you must noe rvtt has always been like this, but because of the constant covering up we have been viewed as people who are rude, disrespect and total bimbos or bitchs. maybe if you looked into the matter clearly or know us better, your view might have been different.

Breaking the Habit!

Sunday, March 02, 2008

sometimes things make me feel like life is a fallacy. one big fat lie that all of us live in. i finally see what shakespear meant when he said life's a stage. all of us are merely actors, enjoying that short moment of lime light. deception, lies, betrayal and backstabbers, i tried desperately to avoid, but i guess there are times when somethings are always impossible to avoid. life always has two sides, & i guess i always focus on the negative parts more. sometimes when i stare at the positive parts i feel that shortlived happiness, then realise that ugly truths behind them. the higher u leap, the harder u fall. i guess, this time, i fall hard. very hard. in life, in grades, in everyone and in me. the promise i made to keep my damn mouth shut, still doesnt work. somehow i feel more obliged to keep it shut now. since everything i say isnt good, i must well shut it up.
attitude problems. i wont deny i dont have them. in fact i am pretty clear about it. but when i try to act as cheerful as i can talking about things that are random, people say that i am acting like a bitch and being fake. when i try to go away and keep my nose out of everything else, people say i ap them. then what the hell do you want me to do? jump of the builidng of cut myself, which i will gladly do so, if not for my parents. they say i act emo. well, newsflash, i AM emo. if you live a life like mine, maybe u will be too. & dont start on saying that you have a live worser than me. cuz i know you dont.i worked hard for everything i have. & i wont give them up just because you think u deserve them more. cuz i dont think so.

i haven given up the fight. i am just trying to protect people whom i now see dont deserve/ dont need my protection anymore. ending.


i seriously cant wait for the day i die.
god, can you please hurry up. i wanna meet you soon and complain about this damn life you have given me so i can get a better one next time.
PS. please make sure i die the right way.

Breaking the Habit!