Thursday, November 08, 2007

today is a slacker day AGAIN!! haha. wasn't supposed to be but it turned out like that. at least i finished me gong han. i don't get the drift for the lun shuo wen so i totally decided to give up on it & come back tomorrow. & at least i tried my maths worksheet. (:

saw the show shall we dance which reminded me of my ballet days. & yes, keep laughing on how unbelievable that xiao bing is a ballerina. but seeing that show makes me want to kick myself in the facefor quitting ballet when i had only 2 years left to be a certified teacher. KICKS it made me realised how much i missed dancing. how much i missed that huge mirror and the barre. & how much i missed those shoes & skirt.just like how much i missed the piano. quitting really isn't an option. it's just a way of escapement, which we will come to regret someday, if not, the next movement. dancing used to be my dream , my everything & the only thing i was good at. i couldn't draw when i was little, i couldn't even hold a paintbrush the right way (not that i CAN now). DANCING was like everything. until those teasing came about. & i gave up. when i look back now, i realised what a stupid reason it was that made me quit. a totally stupid reason. i gave up an art that made me a talent. even though i know i could not join any real performances due to my scar, but at least, i was still a talent. but i gave it all up. for just one stupid reason.

i never seen myself as someone pretty. & have always looked with envious eyes on others' beauty. & i guess. i shall always be doing so.

Breaking the Habit!