Friday, November 23, 2007

threw a SUPA big tantrum when i went home. towards the wall & my bed pillows. i dont know man. i just suddenly felt so pissed that i needed to let it out. i felt like throwing stuff across the room, kicking everything and just well, let it out. maybe this year didnt really go as well as i thought it was. cuz its been a long time, since this happened. at home. when i reflect after like 5 minutes later, i was thinking what a PATHETICALLY SHIT YEAR I HAD. people forcing me to do things i dont want, people expecting me to get things done, people treating me like shit, people criticsing on how i look.
i mean, i am me, man. so what the fuck do i need to care what you think of me. if i am happy being me, what has that gotta do with you? & no, i might not look as explosive as i look like, but yes, if you step on me, do not expect me to not step back.
& i do not fucking care about the school team okay. i have come so long for being in the school team for three years. & it doesnt matter to me if i dont carry on. you dont make my choices. i make them. MYSELF. & if you demand respect, can you please do something to make sure you gain it first, MLJ. because, if you think i respect you, you are far from that. way far from that.

& i dont think i can keep that promise.







也许有些东西让我感觉到累了，累到以前很重要的东西已经变得不重要了。已经变得一文不值了。
我不玩了。这个游戏，我退出，我也玩不起。

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