Wednesday, November 28, 2007

heyhey back from timeline. which created the biggest joke in the world LOL!
we went there & was like totally okay at first. & waited & waited & waited for the thing to start.
then when it finally did, i did the first few questions & i was like, this is still okay. then i flipped the page and i started going like wth! cuz i totally did'nt expect the thing to be so difficult. they asked like questions on things that i have never heard before in my life, & it just keeps getting harder. so totally wth!
then when it finally finished, we were thinking oh shit this is not going to be good. then we went around eating refreshments & lamenting about the paper.
then announcement of results:
river valley team a
& shuying start laugh/scream cuz we were team a
river valley team b
team b people started laughing
river vally team c
team c people started omygawd
river vally team d
& everyone from rv just exploded.
cuz like everyone from our school got in & we were saying the highest should be 30/300. hahahahaha. so god damn farnie can!
but yupps, team a is in second round but shuying will be relaxing in perth. wonder who is going to take over her. well, we shall see on saturday.
more mugging for me :)

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Monday, November 26, 2007

i am so BLOODY PISSED right now. BLOODY PISSED! & i totally mean it okay. & how can you know from that? its only 3.20 pm & i am here. blogging. before this, i went to vivio to get 2 presents, one for pearly & one for rousi. & because of that, i was late for training. & i was all okay with that. but who knows, even though i am late, i kept thinking that at least rousi will be there. i waited & waited. there was only 3 bloody people other than me. i waited until 3.00 until i cannot take it anymore, i packed my bags and left.
in this world, i hate 3 kinds of people,
one: those who are freaking irresponsible
two: those who say they will but in the end they won't
three: those who make me wait for them
& for this people i give only one chance. & she has already used up that one chance along time ago. & we are PISSED

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Sunday, November 25, 2007

谈恋爱，是给那些无聊的人打发时间。
你看我样子，像是个无聊的人吗？

haha. i was like seeing some show that mention something like this & i was like LOL. if next time, anyone ask me when i am going to have a relationship, i am so going to say that. everyone left. everyone. so now, its poor me alone if rousi doesn't come for training. sometimes, being alone has its advantage.
at least i hope so. not going to 2d chalet, don't feel like it & i have no time anyway.& its not like they welcome. tt chalet, its another thing. also not sure whether going anot. see my mood. cuz i am a mood-istic person. LOL.
timeline. when are you going to start studying hur?

有时候，太有空，更容易胡思乱想。

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Friday, November 23, 2007

threw a SUPA big tantrum when i went home. towards the wall & my bed pillows. i dont know man. i just suddenly felt so pissed that i needed to let it out. i felt like throwing stuff across the room, kicking everything and just well, let it out. maybe this year didnt really go as well as i thought it was. cuz its been a long time, since this happened. at home. when i reflect after like 5 minutes later, i was thinking what a PATHETICALLY SHIT YEAR I HAD. people forcing me to do things i dont want, people expecting me to get things done, people treating me like shit, people criticsing on how i look.
i mean, i am me, man. so what the fuck do i need to care what you think of me. if i am happy being me, what has that gotta do with you? & no, i might not look as explosive as i look like, but yes, if you step on me, do not expect me to not step back.
& i do not fucking care about the school team okay. i have come so long for being in the school team for three years. & it doesnt matter to me if i dont carry on. you dont make my choices. i make them. MYSELF. & if you demand respect, can you please do something to make sure you gain it first, MLJ. because, if you think i respect you, you are far from that. way far from that.

& i dont think i can keep that promise.







也许有些东西让我感觉到累了，累到以前很重要的东西已经变得不重要了。已经变得一文不值了。
我不玩了。这个游戏，我退出，我也玩不起。

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Thursday, November 22, 2007

YO MAN! haha. wanted to stay up yesterday to study for timeline. who knows, after 6 hours of intense training, i got K.O. by the sleep monster at 11. RAHHS. so i haven started studying yet. HEY MAN! when are you going to start? ONE HUNDRED YEARS LATER? HUR? & i still got tkk to worry over.

& do you know, this year highest score for PSLE is a imba mark of 294!

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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

hahaha i feel so accomplished. i finished another zuowen. so now i am left with one more. LALALALA. i am left with ONE MORE WEEK to timeline. & i haven study yet. ZHIJUN. ONE MORE WEEK EHhaizz. you are not making any effort to study, man. STUDY! feeling so mentally challanged.



我只需要多两分钟，让我遗忘。

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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

lalala. i am officially posting at a bloody time of 0100. sinyee. yes i am imba. why? cuz after 4&half hours of training, i reach home & finished 2 zuowen & my cmap. IMBA. haha. & i am still wide awake. planning to see if i can wait till my brother comes back from prom. haha. to see how he looks. he left before i came back from training. BLAHH


这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下?

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lalala. suffering from intense pain due to my playing barefooted in the chapel.woke up at 9.30am today because sinyee called me. i was supposed to be up at 8 to go to jurong. but AHHH... zhijun was late AGAIN. haha. when i reached there it was already 10 plus & i started playing with some juniors there. it was okay i guess. not as hiong as i expected. but still, good. i was watching them dance some chinese dance thing & acting like the pirates in the pirates of the carribean, which was pretty LOL but there very cute larr. & sinyee kept saying that the teacher was destroying their image of cute,little girls. LOL.then we went to eat kuay chap which i ate 2 bowls. haha. then rush to training at rvhs. after a while of training it started to rain. HEAVILY & i got totally drenched. then me, yufan & edmund started to train with coach. & kamseng & yunpeng finally return from their romantic walk in the rain. kamseng took off his shoes & started to walk around barefooted. & yufan fell down. HAHAHA. then he took off his shoes too. then sinyee came in all wet & decided to take off her shoes too. then i decided to take off mine & then come yeejin. LOL. so most of us are barefooted except edmund. then we played shen jiang.& when i was against sinyee, i became so excited i STAMPED my barefooted feet on the ground. HARD. & it was so damn pain okay. & my fest is still swollen.

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Saturday, November 17, 2007

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底
你能不能收到它
天有点冷 风有点大
城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什么好方法
让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候
比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了 明天还长
回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗

没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什么好方法
让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

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LALALA. zhijun is feeling abnorml today. considering the fact that i woke up at 12.45 today, i dont know what to say :)been going around & TAGGING. haha. ABNORMAL TO THE EXTREME! drinking bubble tea and trying desperately to suck up the pearls as there are no tea left. LOL. & i can't finish my yee mian UNBELIEVABLE RITE. cant seem to eat nowsaday. & not because i am dieting.& i got my hair cut yesterday. even though i told my mother to say no to me if i told her i want to cut. seems like my mother is a poor opponent. or probably i am just to strong X). got a mushroom cut, with TWO layers cuz i want to leave long & the person say this is the fastest way. so whatever, not like its nice or what. but for once, i try not to really care. going to pon cca on MONDAY. due to the stupid business china thing. well, i rather go cca, to be frank. i know i played horribly on friday. with my calm & relaxed moodLOL. thats like SUPA FARNIE can. i think i scared the juniors, they probably thought i was some mental case. well, i think they are probably use to it le. who ask you come rv huh. no lar, kidding, after sinyee come hit me. LOL. juniors are very nice people. i mean it,man. at least you all are not THAT rude, comparing to some other sec 2 & 1 who totally made me want to scream, " excuse me, are you blind or what. don't you know that you have to be more polite to seniors especially one with terrible mood swings like me!" my juniors don't make me want to do that. so they are nice. :)
i am supposed to do my cmap. but like i care. HAHA. the cmap folder doesnt close on time for my case. dont ask me why. probably some technical error. last time i check which is like yesterday my latent heat one is still wide open. haha. my big headache is zuowen which i totally have a mental block. homework makes me want to murder someone.
oya, going to jurong primary. but not sure of date. even though i have to wake up at some unearthly time, due to people like sinyee with SUPA convincing skills, i agreed. ain't that so wei da of me. haha. but as everyone who know me, i will probably be late for every training. LOL.
got a NEW toothbrush. that is totally cute. haha. makes me want to brush my teeth more. which is good! planning to ask my mom to buy the NIVEA VISAGE facial wash gel which is in a nice shade of blue. heard that its quite good. LOL.
see, told you i am abnormal, i actually tag so long today. LOL
i shall post the lyrics to my blogsong on the next post, cuz the lyrics are nice.
TATA

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

haha. i have watched this like TEN times & i still <3 it.
hebe looks damn nice in this and mike he looks absolutely SHUAI.
& the whole thing is just dreamy X)

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changed blog song. cuz i felt emo all over again. LOL. woke up at 1.45 today and was late for training which made me have BAD MOOD. cuz i want to SLEEP. today's training was shit cuz i wass like SOOOOOO OFF. & the guys kept saying that i was so vulgar. & i went like, YOU FIRST DAY KNOW ME ARH. cuz i was like scolding and screaming the f word like every 5 minutes. haha.

heard this song on 斗牛要不要.& thought it was nice. at least it what i want to ask the person,: 你最近还好吗？

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Friday, November 09, 2007

wrote a long angry post but it will not go up here. unless i really become that pissed off. because if it comes up here, there will be no peace anymore. CUZ REALITY HURTS LIKE SHIT. i admit, i am pissed. & why shouldn't i be? i have the damn fucking right to. happy faces, smiles plastered every single time i go for training. i tried. i tried like mad man. it hurts you know. to have your ex best friend telling you to stop it. mistrust. i saw that. so things do change. they change you & they change me. & nothing is going to change that fact.

世界唯一不变的东西是变。你变了。我也变了。变得无法再忍受在你面前强颜欢笑。

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Thursday, November 08, 2007

today is a slacker day AGAIN!! haha. wasn't supposed to be but it turned out like that. at least i finished me gong han. i don't get the drift for the lun shuo wen so i totally decided to give up on it & come back tomorrow. & at least i tried my maths worksheet. (:

saw the show shall we dance which reminded me of my ballet days. & yes, keep laughing on how unbelievable that xiao bing is a ballerina. but seeing that show makes me want to kick myself in the facefor quitting ballet when i had only 2 years left to be a certified teacher. KICKS it made me realised how much i missed dancing. how much i missed that huge mirror and the barre. & how much i missed those shoes & skirt.just like how much i missed the piano. quitting really isn't an option. it's just a way of escapement, which we will come to regret someday, if not, the next movement. dancing used to be my dream , my everything & the only thing i was good at. i couldn't draw when i was little, i couldn't even hold a paintbrush the right way (not that i CAN now). DANCING was like everything. until those teasing came about. & i gave up. when i look back now, i realised what a stupid reason it was that made me quit. a totally stupid reason. i gave up an art that made me a talent. even though i know i could not join any real performances due to my scar, but at least, i was still a talent. but i gave it all up. for just one stupid reason.

i never seen myself as someone pretty. & have always looked with envious eyes on others' beauty. & i guess. i shall always be doing so.

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Wednesday, November 07, 2007

didn't post yesterday cuz
1) i was too busy slacking?
2) my brother was busyspamming maple story

yesterday was carry everything home day. we have to collect our blazers & skirt for the buisiness china thing. BECAUSE people like WEN JIA BAO & LEE KUAN YEW will turn up. so in order to save face for rv, we have to wear them there. & incidentally, i ask huiling to lent me her white blouse & she also wanted to return me my sc tee. so i ended up with BOTH of them yesterday. adding on to this, i cleverly decided to remember to bring my jacket after forgetting for ONE WEEK. & the guides gave out the cookies yesterday. so i have TWO BOXES of macademia nuts cookies with me. my hands were so full and my bag looked like it was going to BURST any second. NICE GOING, MAN!

& no i found out that i do not look like the hongkong actress BOBO CHAN. not one bit. LOL

& i still haven started on my zuowen

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Monday, November 05, 2007

today the most interesting thing i have done is i ate 龟凌膏 till i almost puke! i ate like this whole bowl of it, which is equalivent to that kind of plastic bowl when you da bao. & i finished the WHOLE thing, okay. with that teeny weeny bit of honey. it's BITTER like HELL i tell you. until i wanna cry liao. GOSH! but seriously quite song haha! i am a sicko! X)

now listening to MR PIG, LUO ZHI XIANG bet on it! & it's giving me a headache. LOL

didn't do any zuowen but finished my physics. i seriously think i become MORE guai ever since i came to 3C. i actually finished my holiday homework ON TIME! or even before the deadline! haha. ZHIJUN IS PRO X)

i think it was jack kuan who gave out those keychain with the puzzle which i think was very sweet. cuz all of us have one & the 2 prcs who left also have one. it makes me think of 3C as ONE CLASS! ONE VOICE!

you walked past and kept walking & walking on. you didn't even turn to look back probably cuz you know i was behind. so now i am a big ugly moster trying to eat you up isit? seriously, if that is the case, you think too much and too highly of yourself. you are stil not THAT worthy of my attention.

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Sunday, November 04, 2007

hahah.was watching the star search thing and i saw ENERGY performing. & i saw this guy who totally looked like that chairperson from 3I. i forgot what his name was. if you are interested, can go find out for your self!

he is SHUWEI from energy!


look alike rite! haha.
didnt do homework today cuz i was busy eating. SERIOUSLY, one fine day i am going to GROW FAT and start regreting!

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Saturday, November 03, 2007

i woke up today at a POWER time of 12.30 pm and watched KIDS CENTRAL till like 3+ before making my way to the library. at the library, amazingly, there were very little people today at the cafe, so i got a seat, drank my love and ate potato chunks AGAIN! even though, they are damn high in CARBO but they are amazingly nice. then, i came home and started on my wave homework, which i struggled with & done like 1/3. later, i finish my cmap on latent heat of fusion and heat capacity & i think i will try to do more zuo wen tomorrow. i have to finish my homework asap in order to MUG for the time challenge thing. & i don't want to do things at the last minute cuz i don't want to miss things i should be going for.

i <3 RVTT sec3 boys & girls. i <3 PEARLY & ROUSI for trying to cheer me up even though i know both of u were afraid of my wrath.i ABSOLUTELY adore KAMSENG & JUNHAO. kamseng was my disowned god-brother and he cheered me up with his spastic movements. & i really regret disowning him cuz i could have gotten a b'dae present. haha. greedy greedy me! & junhao was like totally taking me as a joke!. he said i was wasting the farmers' work cuz i am anyhow-ing hitting and smacking balls which have 0% of getting in or through the net. & i was LAFFING like mad when i heard that & totally just gotten happier :) edmund was also smiling and laffing over unknown things but they cheered me up, considerably!

& i just realised by changing this blogskin i have to type more words or it will look totally empty. my past blogskin was smaller in the post area, so a sentence looked like a PARAGRAPH then. LOL
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emo section: (you are welcome NOT to read

am i seriously that invisible? to such a extent, that my existence is totally something that can be taken for granted. i don't know, man. after all those things, i seriously thought i could make myself more visible. but apparently, you have never once noticed me. is it too much, to just ask that you notice me just once? pay attention to me for just once? in your eyes, i never seen myself. it's always the person in front of me, behind me even beside me, but just never me. why?

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