Tuesday, August 21, 2007

hehe. one of my personal best other than the secret thing :D did this during cid on thursday during lecture and i cut it out from the notes X)


it's supposed to be called bloody valentine. i know it doesn't look bloddy but it is supposed to. still working on that blood part X)

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Saturday, August 18, 2007

it's the weekend..AGAIN. been feeling emo this few days. should be getting a haircut to get rid of the emo-ness. had like 3 tests on thursday. only studied for chem. and didn't study everything. so i don't really know what to say about the tests. i know i will do badly, but for some reason, i don't care. not anymore. at the start of the year, i really had this insane thought that i must really get good grades. & i really studied. but now, even when i look the paper with a mere pass or a drastic fail, all i see in my mind is "i see". nothing else. just 2 simple and meaningless words. WHY?

training on friday was okay. didn't slack but still... i know if i really put my heart to it i can still improve. BY ALOT. cuz i know i haven lost that GODLY touch yet. but for what may i ask? when i hear of cca all i want to do is to go home and sleep. everyday when i wake up in the morning all i want to do is to go back into bed and sleep again. all i want to do is to never wake up. i don't deny, i am running away. from what? REALITY

i never seen myself as a weakling. no matter how badly beaten i am, no matter how many tears i have drop, i alwyas know that there is some part in me that is still determind,resolute and going strong. but i don't know now. i don't know if i am still strong. all i know is that i am shedding more tears for more ridiculous reason. they say you wisen with age. WHAT CRAP. does wisdom come with tears? i don't BLOODY think so. what am i? SOME RIDICULOUS PIECE OF SHIT. where the hell has my pride gone too? can someone tell me?

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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

finally a blog song X) chu mo by chen wei lian. OKAY i know he is supposed to SUCK and all. BUT BUT BUT. this song is nice.& it's god damn touching. haha. so here it goes X)

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Monday, August 13, 2007

WTH. i can't find my EOM paper. and i can't find an article. WARLOW. god trying to play play with me isit. SIANED.

i actually cannot believe myself. i deleted him from messenger on my birthday when i finally got sick of waiting. OH MY. zhijun, where did you get that srtong determination of yours from. oO. hahha. i think those who knows about this might be real STUNNED!!! i also can't believe. but WHO CARES? it's a good start what X)

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blah. today's lesson was DEAD boring. mrs tan was NOT here again and i am beginning to wonder if i can even attain at least a 10 for my mole test. i seriously do not understand anything about it and i really need a crash course. WAHHH mrs tan, if you look at this by chance or whatever, please come back. i don't want to fail for my chem AGAIN. i swear i will stop eating in your class and talk less to yimin. come back soon. PRETTY PLEASE :D & my DEAR MY ANG!!! where have you been? maybe class 3C should start posting WANTED messages for him. i need you to save my maths. i need you to entertain me during lessons. please get well soon and COME BACK (((:

during WONG's lesson, sinyee and slyvia was like standing outside my classroom and we were talking through air. OBVIOUSLY SILENT. while poor mr wong was talking to the board and a class full of corpses. i think he should just make do with the board, but never mind, and sinyee kept asking me to go to the toilet and so i went. and she gave me this super cute and small keychain, with MY NAME. MY NAME!!!! get it, GOH ZHIJUN. okay, without the GOH, but still, hehe, i'm touched :D and she wrote this letter which was so touching that i almost cried.
*actually, i was just touched lar, i never cry okay(:*
& made yimin JEALOUS, green with envy. yimin is a GREEN MONSTER :P

& i just found out i have CARSICK. YES. the kind when you just feel like vomiting EVERY SINGLE THING in your tummy and feeling like a stupid pregnant woman. hahha. & can you believe that i have been sitting a car since i was 1? or maybe like 1 month.ya, whatever, as long as you get the idea. & just all of a sudden i desperately feel like my head's going to burst and everything is just waiting to be puked out. there must be something SERIOUSLY wrong. hehe

still trying to figure how to do E.O.M. which i totally have no heads or tails of. pulling out strands of hair while doing so!!!! ARGH. and i still have physics. haizz. JIAYOU. gotta go. CHEERIOS (:

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Friday, August 10, 2007

i'm really sorry for those who messaged and i didn't recieved. REALLY SORRY. as you know, i'm a poor chap who can't afford pre-paid cards. and since, my phone is totally broke. hehe. you can't expect it not to have a tiny hiccup in the recieving of messages. but for those people who messaged, thank you for just remembering. i really feel touched. so THANK YOU :D

just another boring day which stupid me didn't realised that today was NOT a public holiday. so i spend my whole day moaning that why the library doesn't open on public holidays until my mother pratically screamed and went, " TODAY IS NOT A PUBLIC HOLIDAY FOR GOD SAKE!!! " at around 3 plus. so i quickly made my way there, and YEAH!!! it's open (:
*(so spastic, i know ((((:)
& i stayed there till around 5.30 to make it back in time to see my
"xin jian qi xia zhuan" and stare into faces of shuai ge-s. haha.
i wanna see SECRET!!! i wanna sink myself into his eyes and stare at his face ALL DAY! okay. why do i sound WRONG? never mind. but i truely MEANT what i said.
that's all for today. CHEERIOS!

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Thursday, August 09, 2007

i'm giving you till midnight. today is the day i am totally giving up.

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thanks ppl. or for those who remembered. cuz i woke up at like 11 to find that there were 5 messages on my hp and it didn't ring cuz i put it on silent mode -.-. haha.
to the people:
JASLIN - thanks man. and u sent it like at 12.18am. made me so 感动at first until i realised i didn't know who you were cuz i didn't put ur number on my hp. haha. but thanks!! (:
HUIEN- thank you ((((: u still owe me one XD
SERMING - i didn't know you had a handphone. but i don't think that's the point. THANKYOU!
WANTING - 干妹thankyou for remembering
JUDITH　－ another　干妹　thankyou for remebering too
YIMIN - THANKYOU((:
some annoymous which i haven figured out who it is - thankyou anyways
ROUSI - i <3 you too.
MELISSA - thanks for the FILA shoe bag
JENNINGS- thanks for remembering




however, the person i want to hear those words from. where are you. & do you remember?

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Monday, August 06, 2007

some pics i did :

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Sunday, August 05, 2007

i dunno what to say

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Wednesday, August 01, 2007

yah yah. i haven update for a super long time and i am still stuck with my OBS post. i shall try to finish it by this week (: been super busy this few weeks and the only reason i get to use the com was the fact that i had to do GPP. which is so -.- my poor life has been dominated by tests and more tests. my maths was 20/40 which was pathethic cuz i was suppose fail. but dear mr ang squeezed one mark out for me. and my bio, all i can say is KISS GOODBYE. i look at the paper and all i want to do is to tear it up. and for physics, if i had time. TIME. i wouldn't make so MANY STUPID MISTAKES. WAHHHHHHH!!!! where's my life gone?

something i did when dora lee was busy shooting out her sacarsm towards the PRCS:

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