Wednesday, April 04, 2007

and i can`t stand the pain
and i can`t make it go away
no i can`t stand the pain

it HURTS. but i dunno WHY. ain't i supposed to be void of all emotions? i start feeling so GOD DAMN USELESS. i am PATHETHIC.n' i should just ADMIT it. i SWORE to forget. but when i see him i get so DAMN EMOTIONAL inside. what feeling is that? i don't know. i no longer start to THINK. EMOTIONS take CONTROL. ZhiJun. you ARE running away. FROM something you don't even have a CLUE of. how INTELLCUTUAL is that? are you always going to keep RUNNING AWAY. it's not a matter of emotional thinking, it's a matter of WHY are you running? it's STUPID. wake up and just STOP it.


how could this happen to me
i make my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
as i`m fading away
i sick of this life
i just want to scream
how could this happen to me

i KNOW. it's my FAULT. for being so GOD DAMN EMOTIONAL. i'm SICK of it. TRUELY. but i cant do ANYTHING about it. LIFE is a cycle, of GOOD and BAD. i guess, i was just too BAD a person in my PREVIOUS life. now, zhijun, ain't u DOING it again. EXCUSES. that's what you always GIVE. RUNNING AWAY doesn't make things right you know. IT DOESN'T.

everybody is screaming
i try to make it sound but no one hears me
i am slipping off the edge
i am handing by a thread
i wanna start this over again

i am on my BRINK of mental emotional CONTROLL. NO ONE understands.NO ONE trys to. i am SICK of it. LIVING in SELF-DENIAL. LIVING in a world where things CANNOT go wrong. he DOESN'T like YOU. n' YOU KNOW IT. so JUST LET GO. BEFORE you HURT yourself. you ARE just holding on to a WORTHLESS string, one that didn't EVEN STARTED. ITS your own THINKING. it DIDN'T even STARTED.

Breaking the Habit!