Tuesday, April 17, 2007

学会放开是成长中必要的一部分
这就好比一支老鹰学会因为要活下去，就必须放开抓中的食物
因为食物的拖累，让我们迷失在自己的脚步中。
我们会开始感到混乱，感到世上没有人会对你多加理会
但是，如果自己肯把心中的石头抛开，就将会发现世界的美妙和传奇
had a dream last night.
a dream that i want to forget.
change
a scary word.
a word attributed to fear.
no wrong about that.
THE FEAR can change people.
no matter they want it or not.
i haven changed. towards you.

Breaking the Habit!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

CID
a stupid subject that dominates my life.
let's just hope we can scrape through.

Breaking the Habit!

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

when i heard this song, i can't believe how true it sounds.

WELCOME TO MY LIFE
do you ever feel like breaking down?
do you ever feel out of place?
like somehow you just don't belong
and no one understands you
do you ever wanna run away?
do you lock yourself in your room?
with the radio on turned up so loud
that no one hears you screaming

no you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
you don't know what it's like to be like me

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked
when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no one's there to save you
no you don't know what it's like
welcome to my life

do you wanna be somebody else?
are you sick of feeling so left out?
are you desperate to find something more
before your life is over?
are you stuck inside a world you hate?
are you sick of everyone around?
with the big fake smiles and stupid lies
while deep inside you're bleeding

no one ever lies straight to your face
and no one ever stabbed you in the back
you might think i'm happy
but i'm not gonna be ok!
everybody always gave you what you wanted
you never had to work it was always there
you don't know what it's like
what it's like!
no you don't know what it's like (what it's like)


ITS SO TRUE. THAT is how i am FEELING now. TO all of YOU.

Breaking the Habit!

and i can`t stand the pain
and i can`t make it go away
no i can`t stand the pain

it HURTS. but i dunno WHY. ain't i supposed to be void of all emotions? i start feeling so GOD DAMN USELESS. i am PATHETHIC.n' i should just ADMIT it. i SWORE to forget. but when i see him i get so DAMN EMOTIONAL inside. what feeling is that? i don't know. i no longer start to THINK. EMOTIONS take CONTROL. ZhiJun. you ARE running away. FROM something you don't even have a CLUE of. how INTELLCUTUAL is that? are you always going to keep RUNNING AWAY. it's not a matter of emotional thinking, it's a matter of WHY are you running? it's STUPID. wake up and just STOP it.


how could this happen to me
i make my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
as i`m fading away
i sick of this life
i just want to scream
how could this happen to me

i KNOW. it's my FAULT. for being so GOD DAMN EMOTIONAL. i'm SICK of it. TRUELY. but i cant do ANYTHING about it. LIFE is a cycle, of GOOD and BAD. i guess, i was just too BAD a person in my PREVIOUS life. now, zhijun, ain't u DOING it again. EXCUSES. that's what you always GIVE. RUNNING AWAY doesn't make things right you know. IT DOESN'T.

everybody is screaming
i try to make it sound but no one hears me
i am slipping off the edge
i am handing by a thread
i wanna start this over again

i am on my BRINK of mental emotional CONTROLL. NO ONE understands.NO ONE trys to. i am SICK of it. LIVING in SELF-DENIAL. LIVING in a world where things CANNOT go wrong. he DOESN'T like YOU. n' YOU KNOW IT. so JUST LET GO. BEFORE you HURT yourself. you ARE just holding on to a WORTHLESS string, one that didn't EVEN STARTED. ITS your own THINKING. it DIDN'T even STARTED.

Breaking the Habit!