Tuesday, March 20, 2007

no one understand. at least no one seem to understand.
i tried. so hard. but it didnt work. it never did.
i dun wanna look back at my life when i am 16
and find out that there are plenty of regrets.
i dun wanna look at my reflection in the mirror
and start thinking what i am doing there at that point of time.
i dun wanna look at my hands and my table tennis bat
and wonder if i had made the right decision.
i dun wanna look at my juniors
and realised how crappy my tt skills have become.
no.
i dun wanna do all this.
i wanna look back and feel GOD DAMN proud of myself.
i wanna look at my reflection and feel proud of that .
i wanna not regret anything.
i wanna be strong.

table tennis is NOT just a cca to me. its my LIFE. i dun want my LIFE to turn out to be just one big JOKE. i dun want me to end up as FOOL. a PUPPET to anyone.
its the pain. its the hurt. its the disbelief. that makes me wonder.
WHERE WAS THE TRUST AND BELIEF?

Breaking the Habit!