Saturday, March 31, 2007

had cca exco members seclection on friday. can't say i had any feelings for it cuz well, DO I LOOK LIKE I FREAKING CARE? nope, didnt think so either. i mean, its just a leadership position. u dont play table tennis just because of it. u play table tennis cuz u like it, not becuz its like able to make u achieved RINGS. anyway, i have seen the light on my SC days, and RINGS to me is CRAP and a BURDEN. i dun see the need on having them on my shoudlers, unless i want them just to show that i have the power to become one which is like =.=.

homework is loads. n' zhijun dun wanna touch them. cuz they are BORING. shall pia tomorrow!(:

i found out that many ppl start to change when we are in sec3. maybe cuz we are in different classes? i dun stick to 2d ppl now. we are just like normal friends, not having that kind of close relationship le. n' ppl seem more emo nowsaday. depressing words here and there. i changed too. i admit. i probably dun seem to flare up that easily nowsadays. cuz i dun see the point. whenever i do that, i cant think straight, i let my emotions take control, and bad things happen. i'm sorry, yujie. i really didnt mean it. so probably i need a timeout or something. yups. a timeout.

i got my brand NEW calculator. its WHITE, ppl. WHITE. beautiful white. WHOOTS! i lurv it man. it can calculate equations ok. i noe u r jealous hahaz... then go purchase one from mr ang, pls STATE that u want WHITE not BLACK! hahaz... cuz black is UGLY. its $18, go buy it ppl!

i cant make clear of my feelings. i dunno whether i am stressed or i am not. i dunno whether i am troubled or not. but i noe i'm am happy some of the time. other times, i seem to have lost all emotions. i just feel empty? also, i dun like to cut my hair now. after cutting i no longer feel all my troubles are gone, i feel a sense of disgust, hate , irritation. i feel like pulling every strand out. i dunno wad happen.
i just feel tired.

Breaking the Habit!