Saturday, February 24, 2007

BLAH
things to finish by dear MONDAY:
1)CHEM review article
2)PHYSIC oral presentation
3)HISTORY qns 2
4)study CHEM test
5)study BIO test
6)study ENGLISH formal letter test

AIN'T my life just so wonderful BLEAH

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butterfly tears. ain't it beautiful and rare!! XD that's me ppl!!! hahaz(zi-kua-ing)zhijun is B-U-U-S-Y!! wif test and all those. but she is happy ok!!! cuz she is SMILING!!! GAHS! getting fatter and fatter. gotta work out more. emo is the trend now ppl. let's all get emo man!! hahaz. no one noes y, could be stress bah. everybody is getting emo.

somedays i look back
and noticed how naive i was
but zhijun ain't going back
cuz she is not small ANYMORE

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Thursday, February 22, 2007

hahaz... zhijun is back to normal.. so this blog is revived again (:. thought a lot this few days. sorted everything out and made sure that she is going to SMILE (:. failed my physic. i only did like 1/4 of the paper. and the stupid 1/4 was not even confirm correct de lar. someone just shoot me!! maths was still ok. at least it was ok. haizz... so sianx must pia bio review and still got history test and chinese tomorrow.

CONCLUSION OF THE DAY : rv sucks

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Friday, February 16, 2007

blocked everyone out. needed some space to think. zhijun is determind to forget. to treat like nothing has ever happened. so pls try to greet zhijun and make her forget ok ?XD zhijun is going to smile and mug. exams coming soon JIAYOU ppl (:

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oh ya. forget to post bout v-day. it has been (er-hum) an interesting v-day with (er- hum) quite an interesting reward (:hahaz... one thing to remember is that i broke up with the only god brother that i haf on its eve... becuz he said i was superficial. GAHS RAHS!!! XD school... forget to get all those v day stuff cuz piaing for something... but still got quite alot of stuff. i was touched. seriously. then go match with c div gals and they won. then go home... yups... then.. erm...ya ya ya. thats all folks!! were u expecting something. OOPS! this gal lips are sealed! XD

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quote of the day. it is more painful to hate than to love.

damn tired.... went shopping with lynette, huien, natasha and melissa. went to causeway point. saw so many pretty clothes!!! whee(:! saw this damn nice one at 77th street. but hell, it cost 60 bucks man (hint hint) my gandi is going to get it for (he says lar)during my burfdae!!! (:(:ain't it nice to have such a nice brother. mel is an extremly kind good and generous person. she just lend me her MP3 for the hoildays!!! (: i lurv u MEL!

i'm not trying to make everyone unhappy. i just dont want to go. i'm tired these days. my head just starts throbbing with pain and makes me feel like ap-ing everyone. i'm sorry if any of u are offended.just don't be. cuz zhijun is goign to be in this mood these days. she can't help it u noe. so just smile and let it all go. just like how this beautiful gal is going to let go of her memories. both ugly and beautiful.

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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

ok... i shall update or yangling will come spam my taggie for me to update. XD
played my proudest match yesterday, ppl. to those who did'nt come to watch it, well, its ur lost! (: i lost to Fuhua china person by 3-1. well i could have won, but i dunno why too? my legs just froze there, unable to move. Maybe too nervous le bah? then against bukit view! OMG, damn nice can. they say i was damn shuai during that match... of cuz i am alwaes so shuai (er hum).back to the main point. when i saw lala lost the first match by so match i panic like mad. i was already thinking of giving up. n i was damn scared. then sinyee and carmen looked like they were losing too... and i was even more scared. then coach asked me go out warm out. i took a deep breath and went out to warm out. then when i came in... i was so god damn surprised that we were leading!!!(: and we were winning too(:! we won the first doubles. then a thought struck me. i am not going to give up cuz we still had a chance of winning. and i am not going to let my team down. even if i lost, i want it to be the best match i ever had. and so i did. after a very gruelling struggle of 3-2, i have finally won!!! WHOOTS! my god, felt like crying then. wad a nice sence at that point of time! so damn happy!!! :D and i found out later that was their strongest singles!!! FREAKING HAPPY! i felt so proud of myself. i actually finally undertsood y i was playing tt for, and it was exactly for this huge sense and sastifaction. i would like to thank my team mates, cuz without them, i wouldnt have even manage to win. and of cuz, coach and YANGLING (ur name is soo big)_ for their guidance and those seniors who came back to see us play and edmund and kahan and supporters who came. THANK YOU (:

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Sunday, February 11, 2007

V-day is coming... haizz so sianz...
sure get no present one, but like i care like that XD!
anyway competition is tomorrow! RVTT will win the war!

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Friday, February 09, 2007

i hate to admit it, but i'm afraid. Scared, even. What am i supposed to do? What if i just let every single person in the team down by losing that match. What if i meet Zoey? What if Li Jie just decided to make sure i play doubles. SO many whateverr. My greatest fear is disappointment. I cannot bring myself to face the music when i lose. I just cannot. Fear is enveloping me from head to toe, taking control of my every move. My limbs are turning flaccid, into lumps of wobbling jelly. My brain is malfunctioning, even though it's not supposed to. No codes or numbers were programmed into my brain, as NO codes or numbers represent FEAR. I want to be fearless.How good will that be!I want to contain no emotions. Nothing that can make me repel. I can't afford to lose. Everything is at stake. It's a simple equation. I win or I lose.

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Monday, February 05, 2007

tada... here is the post that you all have been "waiting" for! n thats cuz my gandi wants them up! no lar... actually i qiuite bored mah!! XD

FIVE THINGS YOU CAN SEE WHEN A GIRL LIKE A GUY

1)The gal will keep finding ways to keep close to the guy. for e.g., if the guy goes to the hall to do somthing, the gal will probably make up some lame excuse to go to the hall too! YUPX, this is from exp. ok! ( i actually do that if there are "good" guys around, but other then that no no! actually i do this outside rv. cuz rv arh, haizz.... cannot see de lar.) some of my friends do that too!! (:

2)The gal will aviod eye contact with the guy and acts as if he doesnt exist. (there are some cases where the gal just hates the guy too much to be bothered with him XD)this is limited to certain ppl. if the gal is an act cute super enthu gal, then this is like probably impossible, there will probably do things like in (3). this is more of those COOL girls. so if u got a COOL gal avioding u, u noe what's up!
*PS ( like i say it depends on the cases.)

3)The gal will speak out very loudly when the guy walked past to catch his attention. for e.g., this gal is gossiping to her friends, then this guy walk past, then VAVOOM!, this girl starts screaming and shouting at the top of her voice! (for ppl like me who scream and shout all the time, this does not really appliy (:)

4)The gal becomes extremly interested in the latest gossip about the guy. She wants to check out competition. She will try to find out all things about him and check out where she stands.

5)the last one: the gal will actually look at you from afar... and i mean a far. she will try to do it when she thinks you r not looking!!! so guys, take down wad u see here ok, and try to see if any girls are interested in u! (:



BLOGGER SUCKS! it keeps hanging and i cant do anything BLAH

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Sunday, February 04, 2007

OMG
CHEN SHIWEI WON!! FREAKING GOD!
HAHAZ... SO HAPPY. SM JUST ADMIT IT MAN! CHEN SHIWEI IS THE BEST OKAY!
LOL! ESTATIC, ELATED AND EVERYTHING! SLAP THOSE WHO DUN BELIEVE IN SHIWEI! WHOOTS!
THIS GAL IS SO HIGH!

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Saturday, February 03, 2007

my father just asked me a question:"why are u making such a big hooha over a box?"
n it just strucked me, yeah y?
am i just trying to prove to myself that i can do it or am i just trying to make a statement to the class? when haf i become someone who haf to fight for attention? its not me anymore ain't it. nvm. since the BOX is already done, i am proud of myself!! (: i shall live in low detail from now on. i just want to be normal. just normal. is that so difficult? perhaps being in a new class gives me a feeling of insercurites. a feeling of wanting to be accepted. i shld watch myself from now on. or things could get worse.

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Friday, February 02, 2007

hey ppl, zhijun is here to rant about her life again. YUPX, had a trash out meeting today and got somethings cleared out, which was gd, i guess? in a way. THEN, me, des, candy, judith and sm went to eat!!! (: so happy! long time never go with them le. TOO many homework. if any RV teachers see this pls get the hint. yupxx, zhijun is such a gd ganjiejie! cuz zhijun settled everyone's problems! ain't she PRO? hahaz. i haven done matrices, linear geometery and my trigo homework. ARGH! SHOOT ME ppl!!XD zhijun is SUCH a SLACKER (:

okay, after deep reflecting and thinking, i finally got enlightened(hahaz)! i noe i treat SOME ppl very unfairly for past 2dom-ers. SO, zhijun is going to change her ATTITUDE(is the sp correct?)! SHE is GOING to be FAIR! she is going to smile a delightful SMILE to everyone! SHE is going to greet them with joy and laughter!!! XD you noe who u r, if u read my blog, accept my apologies! (:

WHAT'S UP! tan chuan long didnt come todae, so 3c slacked for 1hr 15mins todae!!! and i ate the whole packet of mel mel sweets in class. I am such a BAD GAL!XD YUPX!
and i almost slept during bio. i mean who cares if ur rough endoplasimc reticulum do not have any ribosomes? then it will just be a smooth endoplasmic reticulum rite! aiyo! talk so much CRAP! then history was OK! actually was interesting, but due to the fact that zhijun was like trying to pull open her eyelids and slapping her mind to just WAKE UP, it was like SLEEPY.(:Zzzz... WAH maths even worse. i just spend my time playing with mel NEW calculater. hers can do QUADRATIC equations okay! and its like god damn cool! heard that hers can also do linear equations. SO JEALOUS! even though she spent $18 and its was quite a waste cuz it ended up that SM stole her calculator. SO I AM NOT THE THIEF OK! XD

TATA ppl. zhijun is going to SLACK somemore! oops, i stil owe you all an interesting post!!! but my tag board is so dead. shall put it up when ppl are more enthu bout it, RITE?

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