Tuesday, January 30, 2007
this is my 100th post
WHOOTS so happy for myself (SO RANDOM)
had training today which was not very succesful.it ended up like alwaes with me getting pissed off at everybody and just walking off alone. i can't stand it anymore. what i want to do now is to throw my bat and leave. tt is no longer an enjoyment, its a burden. & whats more i alwaes get to find things that PISSES me off. FCUK! my STUPID spine is giving me up and my DAMN knee is HURTING form this stupid PRACTICES. i'm sick and tired of it okay. i dun see the reason in getting ur whole body and mind twisted for something that makes me PISSED off. RIGHT? Man, i don't act like this when there is no training ok. I don't understand y i am alwaes so FCUKING pissed off whenever there is training. GOD BLESS, i wonder how ppl can stand me. JUST kick me OUT of the TEAM, will you? I dun realli care anyway. The next thing u noe, i could have an appointment with the school counsellor for beating up too much ppl to relieve my anger.
ZHIJUN is in a SAD mood todae. WHY?
this is why. i shall explain it in a simple mathematical equation. A is unhappy as A don't want to play anymore - this also includes other reasons. B wants A to play cuz they NEED A - what a superficial reason. C told A to just play and made A unhappy and pissed off with B and C. In conclusion, ( M = gradient of A's anger)
A+B+C = undefined m.
A-B-C = 0m
LOL, THIS IS SO RANDOM!
4:36 AM
Breaking the Habit!
this is my 100th post
WHOOTS so happy for myself (SO RANDOM)
had training today which was not very succesful.it ended up like alwaes with me getting pissed off at everybody and just walking off alone. i can't stand it anymore. what i want to do now is to throw my bat and leave. tt is no longer an enjoyment, its a burden. & whats more i alwaes get to find things that PISSES me off. FCUK! my STUPID spine is giving me up and my DAMN knee is HURTING form this stupid PRACTICES. i'm sick and tired of it okay. i dun see the reason in getting ur whole body and mind twisted for something that makes me PISSED off. RIGHT? Man, i don't act like this when there is no training ok. I don't understand y i am alwaes so FCUKING pissed off whenever there is training. GOD BLESS, i wonder how ppl can stand me. JUST kick me OUT of the TEAM, will you? I dun realli care anyway. The next thing u noe, i could have an appointment with the school counsellor for beating up too much ppl to relieve my anger.
ZHIJUN is in a SAD mood todae. WHY?
this is why. i shall explain it in a simple mathematical equation. A is unhappy as A don't want to play anymore - this also includes other reasons. B wants A to play cuz they NEED A - what a superficial reason. C told A to just play and made A unhappy and pissed off with B and C. In conclusion, ( M = gradient of A's anger)
A+B+C = undefined m.
A-B-C = 0m
LOL, THIS IS SO RANDOM!
4:36 AM
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Saturday, January 27, 2007
Competition is coming. FRIDAY! gahs, missing LOADS of LESSONS!! XD isnt that GREAT? but the stress very BIG!! hope that the first school we against is BUKIT VIEW!!! that will be so good (: .
i want to buy CLOTHES!!! lots of clothes. GAHS my clothes lasted me for 2 years and i CANT wear them now! cuz zhijun is growing FATTER!!! *sobs* i am like 50 kg. SO heavy. I want to be SKINNY again again again. must go on DIET!!! XD
hahaz... in order to make my posts more interesting, i am going to have a nice long post on 5 things you can see when a girl likes a guy. XD! u all can posts loads of "5 things" on my taggie. Maybe i would have the other way round too (: . my blog's turning to a gossip magazine GAHS (:
#this girl is going to smile from now! (:
11:13 PM
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Friday, January 26, 2007
i told myself once, if sacrifing something can get what u want, i dont mind.
it turns out that i mind. ALOT
some things dont change becuz u want them not to
we just got to live with it. RIGHT?
yuppxx. zhijun here is going to forget about everything that made her sad): and be a happy gal all over again XD
however about tt. i noe wad u r trying to do. u want to give me a chance. a chance to play. i noe.
but i am not ready to accept it. i'm sorry yangling. i noe i disappointed u. i noe u wanted me to make u proud. Guess i failed. tt ppl. pls dont place hopes on me. i really dun want play anymore. the more i think of it the more i duno what i am playing for. i'm sorry.
about ppl who make me sad. SHOO! get away from my side. that means u and U!(: Get it! i dun wanna be in a bad and grumpy mood all over again becuz of U! HATE u PPL! .\/. if ppl could just disintergrate from my sight. HAIZ!!!
WHATS UP?
hahaz... we have 3 2d ppl in cid in a grp!!! guess who? the GAN family (:! kill us ppl. but we did it! XD so happy to be in the grp with wanting... with her designing stuff becomes so easy! just that probably our grp lacks some hardworking ppl...!!! yupxx other then that ZHIJUN is HAPPY! (:
3 Caution is ok...!! we have some extremly TALENTED ppl. THAT means ME XD! hahaz. the PRCs are so talented. can u believed it that like almost all of them have music background, can draw like pro-s and have excellent mathematical skills. GOD BLESS! I FEEL THE STRESS COMING!! (: rosemary piano skills rock! cant even see her pressing the keys, everything is BLUR!!! and she graduated from piano ALREADY. they have like grade 10 in china like singapore's diplomat and she finished the ENTIRE thing!! OMGZ! and i used to thing that jennings was pro!!! XD althought probably i think that our notice board could be improved. no offence to any welfare ppl... i just have high standards cuz i design 2d notice board. sorry bout that.
another thing is that zhijun's house is FLOODED with her homework. ARGH! drowning in them already. FIRST time in my life got like so much homework PER DAY! *pulling hairs out* CANT BELIEVE IT! pratically doing homework till late night 12+ ( hahaz...that's cuz zhijun started only at 9 and she was doing it while WATCHING TV! blah XD) < SLACKER
WHOOTS! got WANTING pressie. thanks gan mei mei. KIWI chocolates. ( not HIS dog. WADEVA! SHOO!) when she gave it to me it melted a TINIEE WEENIE BIT!! and zhijun put it in the ICEY COLD FREEZER! haven ate it yet but will eat one! (: GARY GU! where is my present? LOST IT already, didn't you! hmph, i want it NOW!!! XD *better remeber give it to
me, k! ) Xp
POOR zhijun just washed her school shoes, tt shoes and shoebag. it took me ONE hour!! my back hurts alot too.....!!! *sobs* this year, been feeling alot of knee pain and back pain... hope that nothing is wrong. *cross fingers*
gonna go row out of my homework now. TATA ppl XD
8:42 PM
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
its time i stopped and look back.
i find myself saying this to myself more and more often this day. " what have i just done"
i dunno. n i dun understand.
wadeva...
if one day. i just disintergrate. who will care?
u, him, her?
3:38 AM
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Friday, January 12, 2007
its alwaes like that.
i just keep losing to left hander
FUCK left handers
i alwaes either get banned or kick out becuz of left handers
what is FUCKING wrong with them!!?
if u dun see me as an apple of ur eye
i'm sorry. but i see u as shit.
you freaking FRAUD!!!
ur stupid words of "care and concern" are FREAKING useless against me
i am not a stupid RABBIT that will eat out of ur DIRTY hand
u can just kick me out of TABLE TENNIS and see if i FREAKING care.
ASSHOLE!
if u FREAKING think that i am absolutely USELESS and i should just be GIVEN UP
u can TRY
i will FREAKING kick ur ASS off this SCHOOL
u BITCH.
8:09 PM
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
i dunno what to do
zhi jun
u r SO STUPID
y cant u just listen to ur father n go to BICULTURAL?
and u could be with sherry and some gay class?
i'm tired.
i can't fit in.
i'm just not like them.
i dunno what to do either.
i see 2a ppl in a grp i dun wanna be near them
i duno wad to sae what to do
its no longer 2d.
that's true
i no longer haf ppl whocan go crazy wif me
that's true
i just keep thinking about 2d
and now.
worse come to worse
i shall just act zi bi
and just care about studying.
i shall just ignore everyone ('cept for mel and huien) unless needed
and just try to at least get something for my results
2:18 AM
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Friday, January 05, 2007
i am going to drop bio.
if ang mia lee just let me.
wads his prob anyways.
dun like him XD!!!
he dun let me change.
ARGH!!! KILL HIM!
LOLZ! (:
4:03 AM
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