Monday, October 30, 2006

你是否有看过人家驾车？
很多人都知道
最右的道路是让驾车比较快的人使用
就是因为这个道理
很多人都会自动地走在最右的道路
因为
第一，会通常无阻
第二，看着别的车子还在漫漫行走，自己却很快的超越他们有一种爽感
可是因为人的这种很固执的想法
通常最快的道路会变成整条街阻塞的原因
为何呢？
原因很简单，因为太多人使用道路
造成整个街有很多固执的使用者不要换道路
坚持着自己的想法
继续以他们所谓很快的速度行走
可是他们所谓的快确是比别的道路使用者的速度来得慢
往往人生也会看到这些所谓的人
他们在人生中要求把事情做的最快
不会放慢速度看看周围的人
他们认为只要用最快的方法
事情就会解决
这种人往往都是自私的
在他们的眼睛里
除了自己以外
大家都是黑或白色
自己永远是最闪亮最富有彩色的人物
事实上，人人都知道
用最快的方法，不顾别人的感受
得到的结果是那么的不让人满足
可为何还执著在自己的想法重呢？
因为他的眼里容纳不下别人
心里也一样
他走的速度很快
因为这样他从不曾回头过
只顾着和自己的想法与时间赛跑
所以因为这样他最终会和他拥有同样想法的人碰撞在一起
但是两人都不肯放下速度让对方先走
导致两人都会停留在那个地方
都不跟让步
很傻吧？
结果：
1）别的道路的会通常无阻
最右的会有很严重的阻塞
2）最右的使用者不会看到自己越过别人
反而会看到别人越过自己
感受会是如何？
悔恨，痛恨，懊悔当初会这样
在马路上行走的车
明白这个道理吗?
很明显的
事情终究还在发生
如果一开始没有这样，
结果会是如何呢？

Breaking the Habit!

如果有一天我回到从前
回到最原始的我
你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天我离你遥远
不能再和你相约
你是否会发觉我已经说再见
很多很多的如果
世上就是这么多好笑的事情
我从小就发觉
说如果是那么的错
如果我一开始没有那么做。。。
很熟悉的一句话吧？
生命中很多的一举一动是我们的正常反应
就像大自然里的动物的生活习惯一样
就算做了后悔你能怎样
说一句如果能改变任何事吗？
我们无法逃避这些事情
唯一能做的是从错中学习
不要再让相似的事件再度卷起从来
错误之人生中最好的老师
只有错误会让你整整醒悟
只有错误会让你知道原来自己已开始是那么的笨和傻
很多人很害怕错误
但是因为错误的存在
让我们能从中成长

Breaking the Habit!

Saturday, October 28, 2006

this is something i wanna say to my friends
this r ppl in some way made a very big and important change in my life
but i kind of took them for granted

firstly wanting
when i first saw u in sec 1
i really wanted you to be my friend
u had something special in u
that attracted me to u
u were always very kind and generous
u never scolded me or ignore me whenever i did things that may hurt u
and when i always take u for granted
u still stood beside me
when someone came along and gave me a hint on what i was doing
i felt very guilty
i felt that i had made use of u
i tried to made it up to u
i tried being a gd friend
i'm sorry
if u still feel that i am taking you for granted
becuz i dun really noe how to be a gd friend
but believe me
i have tried
and for the rest of my life
i hope and wish that we can be friends forever
forever and ever
so when we meet again in school
we will stil have that unbreakable bond between us
can we?

secondly sinyee
firstly thankyou for always standing beside me
u have made a big difference in my life
u made me see how selfish i had been the past years
u somehow made me see the light
whenever i was bored
u were there to cheer me up
whenever i was down
u tried means to make me happy
i remember tan kah kee
i remember when there was a period i couldnt make it
u went to do the box urself
and did almost the whole thing
i however didnt really do anything at all
but still shared the glory with u
so i want to thank you for being my friend no matter how selfish i was
similary, like the same for wanting
i somehow took u for granted as well
so sorry for treating all of u like that
very sorry

thirdly desmond
my official gandi
u noe why i choose u to be my gandi
becuz at that point of time when u were sitting behind me and louisa
u were really like a little boy
u were very innocent and maybe a bit cute
but mostly becuz i felt something in u that i dont see in others
so u became my gandi
i noe u r not happy with me calling u gandi
but bear wif it...since we might not see each other again
i'm sorry if i made u unhappy
really sorry
but if u ever feel very messed up
ganjie will be here
u have changed from those days
no longer simling every moment
but u r still my gandi
no matter what
try to open up
and not keep everything to urself
u changed my life
u made me see that i was the only important person
in a way, u made me see others
not from the rear view mirror
but from the side view
u taught me to care for others
and being happy was the main point in life
so thank you
and jiayou for wad eva u choose
whether we can be in the same class doesnt matter
wad matters is that u r happy
from the bottom of ur heart

fourthly zhengyang
haizz...zenyang arh
u were like my elder brother
giving me alot of advice on a lot of things
u were also a gd friend
u let me beat u when i was down
with no complains
thank you
about ur very messy gb relationship
i advice u to sort u out
u may in the end find out who is the one u really like
u changed my life in a very big way
maybe u never ever realise
but u were probably one of the only ppl i can open myself to
even though sometimes the advice u gave were shit
but at least u cared
and u were always there
u taught me to think simply
and not to always complicate things up
u taught me that some things cannot be always kept to urself
and opening up will make u happier
during my sc season
u were there to help no matter wad
like the senior's farewell
when everything was in a mess
u help sort things out just like that
thankyou... maybe this will be the last time we share memories like that together
but i wanna say that y dun u try for next season sc
i think u can do it
i might be trying to
then we can all go back to our beloved pb :')

jennings
u noe i'm really gonna miss you when u go
in tt or in class
u helped me no matter wad
when i pester u for those maths solutions
u were quite irritated but u still help anyway
u cheered my life up
u taught me that life was just like that
so we should make full use of everything we can do
i once was very envious of you
becuz u could do all maths questions and science questions without a sweat
while i will be struggling like mad
but u made me realised
that everyone had different strengths
when u knew bout my history results
u were not envious (i hope, maybe u were?)
but i could see that u congratulate me from the bottom of ur heart
sincerly
no like others
jennings
u will miss me rite?
no matter what next time if we meet again on the streets on wadeva
just a simple nod or "hi"
will make me feel that u still remember me
so remember to do so ...


all this ppl made a HUGE difference in my life
of cuz there were many others
but these ppl are ppl who i always took for granted
so now i wanna say thank you and sorry
no matter what happen next
i will still be ur friend
no mater how or what :')

Breaking the Habit!

Friday, October 27, 2006

went to see deathnote today
alot of ppl go see
was quite disappointed
not like the comic
see already go candy house there the mac
then actually want to go her house there
then went to library
borrow books
go home
eat
see tv
mood todae: at first happy, disappointed then sad

Breaking the Habit!

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

today went to bukit panjang plaza there
with sm sy and nat
okay lah
basically they go and print their photos
i go and buy my earrings
yah...

Breaking the Habit!

Sunday, October 22, 2006

无意间看到了jennings的msn nick
不知为何，眼泪就开始在眼眶里打滚
在立化中学里，我们大家都为了自己的目票前进
但是，我们渐渐的开始依赖着对方
需要对方不断的支持与鼓励
需要对方一句赞美的话
对于女生来说，我们很希望我们就可以这样度过我们中学的日子
对于男生来说。。。我也不知道你们有什么想法
会和我们一样吗？你们最清楚。。。
我很舍不得那些要走的人
因为多多少少你们在我每一天的生活里扮演一个很重要的角色
我很希望你们能不要走
可是心意已定的你们对于我们的苦苦哀求也已经不动心了
我想对你们说
我就像是一个建筑
你们就像是所谓的foundations
如果生命里少了你们
我可能会因此塌下
所以不要忘记我好吗?
有空时发一下简讯，让我知道你们想着我
让我知道你们没有忘记我
如果有一天，你们被男朋友甩了或者因为别的原因不开心
我随时会来安慰你们
真的，只需要一通电话
如果以前我得罪你们
请你们多多原谅
因为我知道我的脾气不好
有时说话很直接
所以就多多原谅

Breaking the Habit!

Friday, October 20, 2006

lol...another blogskin
i think its sweet :x
http://childhood--.blogspot.com

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to anyone who want a blogskin design... this one is free... if anyone wants... can help do layout pls sm... help sy one also k
http://i129.photobucket.com/albums/p212/hatezandlovez/coulourcopy.jpg

Breaking the Habit!

just came back from school seen the Macbeth play
not bad
but the thing kept changing then abit luan
but in all 3.5 stars...
got in tan kah kee again
this time is me sy and des
very busy the holidays...
then cid made me very pissed off
cuz keep on rehearsing...
then they keep on giving comments
then pissed pissed pissed
lol....
this few days very tired
after bbq and all
but u noe wad
zhijun will take it with a smile
cuz i know i can do it!

*guess who but i am not going to tell!
if i can the facts
i would wish to never to meet you
if i can predict the future
i wish for you to always be by my side
if i can read your mind
i hope that you will always be missing me no matter what
if i can read your heart
i hope that i will be somewhere deep down inside
all this ifs but no facts
will you be able to change this ifs into facts
maybe not maybe yes
but i wish to say i will always be there
no matter what no matter when
becuz that what i am here for!
i may seem very distant
but i am actually very close and near to you
so dont look further anymore
becuz i will always be beside you :]

maybe guy or gal...lol


to my dear friend;
will you miss me too?
*to the gurl who i misses so much that i wrote her name over and over on my wall so i will not forget

i wish you happiness no matter where you go
no matter what cca you choose
no matter what combinations you take
just do it with your heart
and with a smile
if you need someone there for you
just noe that i will always be ready waiting for your call
from spongebob to nobody
you have always stood beside anyone
so now anyone will stand there
sliently
wishing you happiness no matter what you do :]

Breaking the Habit!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

todae tt again
train like mad
and WHOO...
i got praised by jiao lian
lol.... y so happy arh
i also dunno eh
cuz everytime also got praise one...
todae wilson came
and ohmygod
he is so tall
shorter then me by 2cm
and he quite shuai lor
even shuai-er then edwin (he was in the first place)
i think he even shuai-er then jonathan lor (better example)
somemore cuter....
lol...but tohsy dun agree
he is lor...der
i am actually missing xiaoderrick now
wondering how he look like now
still looking like derrick?
actually wanna 'ren' wilson as gandi one
but he too rebellious liao
i say something he reply me with some vulgartic words
*PS. not only me... everyone who talk to him he also like that,even yanglin also like that...
and the most important thing is he got into sports school
can u believe it....!!!
he quite pro one lor
somemore only primary 6
owned me lar
jie jie wei ni gu zhang!
todae alot of thing happen
some very unhappy things
i think all tt-ers will noe wad i am toking about
i just wanna sae sorry to the c'gals
really sorry
we didnt want things to turn out like that
saw alot of ppl todae...during break
saw all of 2dom dancers
saw jon
saw ... forget liao
haizz
tired and sick
i dun feel like studying anymore
i wanna give my all to tt
cuz tt is something that makes me feel that i belong there and i hold an important place (actually i dun)
ya playing tt makes me forget about myself
about my troubles everything
i just think about the game
if one day ...
i can make a choice
i would want to go to a sports school
cuz they really focuz alot on sports
and that is wad i want
so i am quite envious of wilson
haizz
heard that zoey become even more skinnier
i mean in the first place she is already so skinny
skinner?
cannot imagine
who is zoey?
she is dickson xin li de mei nu.
tomorrow is Art fest
wanna tell all performing grps to JIAYOU!
*ps. to gandi.
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU
must stay calm and do ur best!

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ripped this from jenns blog
too bored...

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAMES STARTSWITH A "S"
A: Sherry
Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS:
A: my mama
Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?
A:from judith...'yo i think u waned me to remind me that u owe yantong money"
Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A:yes...is that a crime
Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
A: depending on how curly it is, my fring will curl when its long =.=
Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOURE GOING TO?
A: i dun go to concerts, i am too broke
Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
A:everyone that i noe
Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY A LOT?
A:本小姐，白(it means 白痴) and alot of others... depending on my mood
Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
A: dumplings... still eating
Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?
A: you want to cook or fry anything also can - to my mama
Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
A:who doesnt?
Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE DONNIE DARKO?
A: ??
Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
A: for wad?
Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?A:how bout 10 seconds ago? to everybody i noe .. i love you
Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
A: bathing
Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
A: yes,xiao mei mei ben xiao jie ...lee lee mui juni0r, lijie....alot...cant remember.
Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
A: ya
Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY ?
A: my sis
Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
A: wad do ya think
Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
A: ya
Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
A: at toysarus(i think i spell wrongly)
Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE?
A: in school listening to ms chia
Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
A: rob-b-hood
Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY?
A: yeah... dont noe wad u talking about
D1. Full Name: Jean Goh Zhi Jun
2. Name Backwards: NujihZhoGneaJ
3. Were You Named After Someone: ya... some character in a fiction
4. Meaning Of Name: 正人君子 so since i am a gurl so opposite =.=
5. Nickname:its on top lOOK urself
6. Screen Name:nope
7. Date Of Birth: 9/8/92
8. Place Of Birth: Singapore
9. Nationality: Singaporean
10. Current Location: Singapore, at home, in front of the com
11. Star Sign: leo
12. Religion: free thinker
13. Height: 160+cm
14. Weight: Around 45+kg
15. Shoe Size: 7-8
16. Hair Colour: brownish
17. Eye Colour: Brown
18. What do u look like: me
19. Innie or Outie: outie!
20. Righty Or Lefty: Right
21. Gay, Straight, Bi Or Other: Straight
22. Best Friends: everybody!
23. Best Friend You Trust The Most: everybody! (:
24. Fav Pals: everybody!
25. Bez Frens Of The Opp Sex:erm... all the guys i noe..
26. Best Buddies: wanting sinyee sherry
27. Boifren or Girlfren: everybody in class :D
28. Crush: =.= y shld i tell u
29. Parents: My mum and dad?
30. Worst Enemy: quite alot
31. Fav Online Guys: nope
32. Fav Online Girl nope
33. Funniest Fren: i dunno
34. Craziest Fren: everyone i noe since i am crazy too
35. Advice Fren: chienying, yee jin, zhengyang, xinyi (man, am i problematic!)
36. Loudest Fren: sherry...i think?
37. Person u cry with: jennings and xinyi? (once) class? entire tt team? i prefer to cry alone
38. Any sisters: unfortunately,yes
39.Any brudders: yes
40. Any pets: hamsters died
41. A disease: touch wood
42. A pager: is there even one now?
43. A personal phone line: nope
44. A cell phone: ya
45. A lava lamp: hope to get one
46. A pool or hot tub: i'm not that rich
47. A car: not mine
48. Personality: attitude problem type
49. Driving: wanna go to hell earlier?
50. Car or one u want: i want the mini volkswagen
51. Room: something like a rubbish dump
52. What's missing: my brains, seriously
53. Schl: ATS, RVHS
54. Bed: double deckered wif me below
55. Relationship with parents: ok
56. Bliv in urself: not really
57. Do u bliv in love at first sight: didnt they just ask this question?
58. Consider urself a gd listener: okay lar... i prefer to be the one speaking
60. Get along with parents: Yeah
61. Save ur email conversations: some
62. Pray: whenever i am going for competitions and whenever i am getting my results
63. Bliv in reincarnation:i want to reincarnate to be a .... i dunno eh
64. Lyk 2 make fun of ppl:wad do ya think?
65. Lyk 2 talk on phone:ya
66. Want 2 get married: erm... abit early
67. Lyk 2 drive: sure thing
68. Get motion sickness: no
69. Eat the stems of a broccoli: ya
70. Eat chicken fingers with a fork: like u say they are chicken FINGERS, the name hints how it shld be eaten
71. Dream in color: ya
72. Type with ur fingers on home row: no
73. Sleep with a stuffed animal: ya.. my mehmeh from des, my zhuzhu from sy and my pink pig from melmel they all
74. Right nxt 2 u: my phone?
75. On the walls of ur room: paint
76. On ur mouse pad: my mouse =.=
77. Dream car: i dun plan to drive, i plan to have a chauffer
78. Dream date: if i ever get one
79. Dream honeymoon spot: =.=
80. Dream husband or wife: =.=
81. Ur bedtime: 11+
82. Under ur bed: some boxes
83. The single most important question: wad r u toking about?
84. Ur bad tym of the day: when i wake up
85. Ur worst fears: hmm... when someone leaves or i noe i am going to die and i haven do the things i want to do yet
86. The weather is: foggy
87. The time:7.21pm
88. The date: i dunno
89. The bez trick u eva played on someone: do i play tricks?
91. Theme song: feng by jay chou
92. The hardest thing bout growin up: growing up
93. Ur funniest experience: dunno
94. Scariest moment: when i had to walk to my aunt's house which is in a place with alot of trees and the road lamps were not working
95. The silliest thing u hav said: i duno
96. The funniest or most desperate thing you hav done 2 get da attention of the opp sex: i dun need to get their attention
97. The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friends: i dunno
98. The worst feeling in the world: to noe u r dying and u cant do anything bout it
99. The best feeling in the world: Happiness and 幸福
100. 5 people to do this quiz: sm, sy, wt, des and melmel

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Monday, October 16, 2006

zhijun is very tired
dunno why
keep on feeling like sleeping
i even slept in ms chia class lar
crazy liao
i think must be all the excitement and the busy scheldules
of course
there is still the stress
if i could change time
i will choose not to come to this school
to know you
becuz so far all you brought
was not happiness
but bitterness and pain

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wad was i thinking?
u could never like someone like me
never ...
stop making me open my heart to you
stop letting raise my hopes up
cuz u would never like me
becuz i just found out i still cant let go

Breaking the Habit!

i couldnt find any skins that were more expressive and nicer than this one
so i still came back to this
no changing of song
becuz feng is something very meaningful to me
hope that someone can come along and do some pretti skins for me

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Saturday, October 14, 2006

haizz
freaking sianx
dunno wad to do
just cleared out my cupboard of clothes
and *WOAH
i just find out all my outgoing clothes are BLACK
*bleah
everything is black from shirt to bottoms
no colour combi
i want a white polo
*hint hint
anyone rich enough to buy it for me?
freaking tired this days with all my muscles aching
due to tt, pe and openhouse
yah
change blogskin and song
even though i prefer the old blogskin but it is neccesary to have a change
may consider changing it again today
so sorry to thise whi haven seen this one (*^.^*)
listening to feng now
the song that can mkae me cry
but i'm not crying now
cuz i have forgotten xp
seroiusly i have let go
still thinking of how to do expo. essay
cuz zhijun didnt copy down the questions =.=
*RAHS
wad shld i do then...?

is there something happening that i dunno?
can someone tell me what is going on....

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*RAHS
todae was freaking tiring and stupid
wake up so early in the end do 废
stand there and do the demo until my hands want to break liao lor
stupid open house

later went to eat at jec with des, judith, sm, jy, sy,wt and mel
we ate long johns
then slack
then the "red army" came
they consist of hL, xy and jon
then the red army started to play some lame slapping game
then they hit the cups of coke
and *bleah
down went the coke on me and my phone
haizz
the coke got into the battery and the screen and my phone seems like its dying
for god sake dun die on me
i never send warranty card eh
then hearing from sy they got **谁是谁的周杰伦hard cover
**this is one of my favourites
so i ran ran ran to popular
and saw something that made me pissed off
haizz y like that?
then found out that i 白高兴一场
cuz i saw it be4
LOL
then mel me and sy were commenting in wad i saw just now
when the rest came and they started to look at stuff
then they kept on looking when we asked them whether they wanted to go
in the end
i think after 30 mins
they say ok =.=
then i decided i didnt want to go
actually not becuz i was pissed
i was 1% pissed
but i wanted to avoid someone and i had to go home early
cuz i told my mama
and she wanted to wash my shoes or it wont dry
so i'm sorry
lol

wad happened to you?
y the hell r u changing?
just stay the same way as u were last time
do not, DONOT make me feel wierd
i dun like that feeling

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Friday, October 13, 2006

todae's training was crazy
sweat like mad pig like that
the whole tee wet
my whole hair wet
haizz
how? zhijun 要被 juniors trash liao
as usual, i am still to rash and i only want to hit the ball and be done with it.
so during competitions there will be no skill or technique
haizz....
must jiayou
there is a very good suggestion for everyone
and that is people who want to 瘦身should go to the room under the dance room(our tt corner) and play tt for 3 hours
the whole room like sauna like that lar
the whole thing made me sweat so much i cannot concentrate on the game
crappy stuff
then when i go wear my specs i keep on seeing the ball right in front of me...
then i keep on avoiding it
haizz... zhijun actually never wear specs is cannot see the ball one
i hear the ball and feel it to play
so sometimes will a bit 迟钝
so when zhijun wear specs
can see the ball
then will only use eyes to see
cannot hear or feel
so zhijun cannot wear specs during play ball
anyway i think this time will be kick out of school team
but heck
i rather not be in school team
freaking stress
i forgot how to 拉球eh
make me so stress up
then very pissed
then keep on scolding vulgarities
wad the hell lar
i cannot even 拉球
my speciality eh
freaking thing
then i became abit crazy
as long as i see the ball i started smacking
then poor tohsy kept getting hit
her fingers all that
sorry sy
but i think u must buy insurance first next time before playing wif me


today, gandi 哭了
when he recieved the results i think it was the last blow for him
he has been going through all this bad phases so far
and he had always been strong
guess that everything was just too much
when he started to cry i really dunno wad to do
i just felt quite helpless
lol...then i started to make fun of jonathan to encourage gandi
sort of habit liao
told gandi if he dun teach jonathan the dance, then later he dunno how to dance, then look like retard like that, then 你这个future dance pres will get scolded by mr soh.
lol...anyway jonathan really looked quite wierd
hahaz... then sy told jonathan to cheer gandi up
then he came over and made his face
when he did that gandi suddenly bend over
i thought he crying again lor
then at that point of time feel like killing jonathan
then des suddenly smiled
hahaz... dunno whther to laugh or cry
then i pulled him up and force him to teach the dance
gandi.... must jiayou k
have a strong will and belief and u will get there
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

wad is that do i see from ur face
a smile towards me?
how is that possible?
anyway thank you for making my day！

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Monday, October 09, 2006

退后
白色风车
你知道吗？
这两首歌很悲哀
听了很想哭
可是我答应过她我每一天要打从心里的笑
一定要
所以不管什么眼泪已经流干了
所以我会很开心的笑
你知道芷君现在最想做的吗？
那就是死
很自私的想法
可是又多么的有吸引力
你们知道吗?
我很讨厌你们
为什么人就是这样
跟你说的话就是那么得好听
心里想得却是那么的丑陋
他们的可怜我不要
第一，我不觉得自己可悲
第二，他们的话很假
假得让我分不出真假
我知道你们心里在想什么
因为我看得到那幅丑陋的心
虽然我看不到你正正的脸
可是我听得见你的话
芷君活得很累了
你们告诉我我做错什么好吗
我到底做错了什么
为什么我就是必须让你们耍
为什么我就是要这样痛苦
不要跟我讲你们从来么没有说过
因为我听得见的
我每一句话都听得见
你知道吗
我听到那些话我的心很痛
这对我来说是一种背叛吧
算了，我答应得我会做到
我会笑
打从心里的笑

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芷君今天其实很伤心。
很想哭但是哭不出来
有一个女生，只要我看到她，跟她讲话
我就会感到无比的自卑。
因为我和他比较，有天壤之别
她是黄金，我是泥土
她很受欢迎，我却是一个落落无名的女孩
没有人懂，只有我默默地承受这种压力
她的漂亮让我感觉到自己的丑陋
她的声音让我觉得我应该是一个哑巴
她的温柔让我觉得自己是多么的笨拙
她的出现让我很想挖一个洞钻进去
她就是这样的一个女孩
没有想到吧？
芷君也要害怕的人
这也不算是害怕，是一种自卑感
一种能让你希望你是她的感觉
是这样没错。。。
可是我的歌声好像带给很多人很多不快乐
可能也不是不快乐。
也只是一种厌倦
我知道我很霸道很无理取闹
你们所说的话我能听到
不用一个字一个字地刻在我的心头上
那些话相似一把锋利的刀
一割一画，都能造成一滴一滴的血留下
我知道你们不喜欢我
我知道的
真的知道
芷君很痛苦
这种生活很痛，压力也很大
每一天的笑脸也僵硬了
这不是快乐的微笑，这是痛苦的笑颜

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Friday, October 06, 2006

今天很无聊
没有人要出去
我现在学周杰伦的舞步
本草纲目
已经学到四分之一了
我觉得他的无不是因为他一直换取不同的角度来拍
不知道是右手还是左手
让我猜到很辛苦
我觉得他的舞步还好
没有比蔡依琳的难
一定要加油哦

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今天，我坐在那个秋千上。
越荡越高。
我突然想起有人对我说过
在你荡秋千时，在最高点的时候
闭上眼睛，因为那时你会看到你真正喜欢的人。
我闭上眼睛
可是令我惊奇的是我看不到任何东西
什么都看不到
原来我已经忘记了
我已经放手了
当时，我明白了。
我没有喜欢过他。
一点
也没有。
在泰迪男孩这本书里
韩飞银很想得到西振
可是他永远都属于刘小银的
所以她问小银
你有没有做过秋千？
我现在就像坐在秋千上
在最高点时，我闭上眼睛
我看到了西振
我很努力很努力地往西振的方向追着
可是我永远追不上
他就像是蓝蓝的天空
我坐在秋千上，一直往上荡
在我和天空之间，只有那么小的距离
可是我还是动不到，一直到动不到
因为他选择和你这个太阳在一起
在你的身边环绕，漂浮。
对他来说，我并不代表什么
因为你是他的全世界

我没有觉得他是我的天空
在最高点是我也看不到他的脸
因为我的心里容纳不下他
就算要我勉强要我包容
我做不到
我已经松手了
让你飞走
你就去找你的太阳
因为你要在她的身边环绕，漂浮
因为她比我更需要你

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Thursday, October 05, 2006

my day was spoiled becuz of 3 fagging bitches
wad the crap
pissed off... .\/.
todae was so fun... we were singing at huiling house there
then we go play swing
cuz we have to go off earlier (me, xinyi, judith and kelvin)
then we walked to the mrt station
then along came 3 bitches walking in the opposite direction
got one skinny one tall one short short
we were very wu liao
we were kicking the fruits on the ground
kick here and kick there
then i was looking at the fruit that i have kicked to see where it went...
then we walked on to a further distance
and decided to see who can kick the fruit the furthers...
then the 3 fagging bitches came to us...
and innocent me thought they want to ask for road directions
the short short said to judith:刚才你diao(stare)我朋友啊！(sorry if u dun understand their very poor chinese)
then we all had puzzled looks on our faces...
then the tall tall said :不是她。是那个！ (pointing to me)
then i said a very loud HUH?
cuz i was like excuse me... 你那一只眼睛看到我diao他？
then the tall tall said: huh 什么_(there is something at the underlined...but i couldnt remember and could hear what she said)
the the short short one said：闭嘴 (to the tall tall one)(internal conflict?)
then she said: 你干吗diao(stare)我朋友啊？
then i said: i was looking at the fruits at the ground, how can i diao your 朋友。。。？(influenced by your bad language)
then she was like: 哦
then our faces had 莫名其妙written on them
then she tried to pull something to give her a back way: then 刚才你们踢那个fruits 踢到我。(someone must tell her that speaking standard english and chinese is important!)
then kelvin said: 对不起，是我。我刚才有道歉。
then those three fagging bitches then left

PURLEASE... why must i stare at you...
not even pretty can
still use green mascarae
can go fight with the demons in the 聊斋 liao
still so short somemore lol even judith taller eh
anyway the fruits that we kicked did not even touched the BITCHES can...
they see us RV one think we dont dare do anything
propagandanism lor
wad the crap lar
RV one must very guai one isit
if i not wearing school u i will跟你 fight到底。
FAGGING BITCHES...

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