Saturday, September 16, 2006

周杰伦的退后
使我刚换得歌

i'm sorry.
for the flash and the cid.
becuz when wt said can she dun do the flash
and just get one from jingyi
mildred flashed past my mind.
irresponsibility, laziness.
that was wad i thought,
i thought that wt did not want to stay back so she rather not do
and the fact that we have discussed this one week advanced
made me even angrier
then sy shouted.
and my bubble burst.
mildred,xiuhan,wt and then sy
wad was happening
and then i got it
the common factor was that i was inside
so i just started reflecting
and tada... tears came out
i am just sick of myself
nothing seems to go right when i am inside a group
as a leader, a member
its all the same
so i am tired of MYSELF
not YOU
so just let me have this calmity period
where i can just not laugh or smile and just look cool
just let me start reflecting on wad gone wrong.
i noe that being my friends are tiring
i noe that too
becuz being myself is eqaully tiring
akways the best, never the worst
that's my drive in life.
so i am tired of being myself
its not your fault
its mine
so just let me cool down
and let me think
while you all wait for that smile to appear again
i will continue doing the things i have to do
flash and cid
you all can still talk to normally
but the answer you get might just be a nod, grunt or a yes or no
but i will still do the things that is needed for me to do
so dun worry

Breaking the Habit!