Friday, September 29, 2006

haizz
mugging is wad i do now!
very sick of it cuz i dun understand but i cant really do anything.
SO JIAYOU!
to everyone one including my dear dear and and me and all 2domers!

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Friday, September 22, 2006

"I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character." this is said by Martin Luther King Jr.
His dream was to see people in his country live in harmony together.
His dream was to see that his race or any other races are being discriminated becuase of their skin colour, their language or even the colour of their eyes.
His dream was to see in peace in the country.
I know this will be quite insulting to someone
but i hope that u will still scroll down and look at the rest calmly.
In 2d, in school, in singapore, there will always be different races in them.
if u feel insulted becuz of the existence of other races, ask urself.
who are the proper owners of Singapore, the place where u live in.
Malays, that's who they are.
we owe everything we have now, today, to our malay ancestors.
THEY were the ones who set up this island.
THEY were the ones who provided this island for us to live.
u may disagree, but i can further explain.
All men are equal.
we are not equal in our intelligence or the beauty of one person.
NO! we are equal becuz we all own the right and the authority to live a life in this world.
we should not discriminate others becuz they are different from us.
becuz discrimination is actually a type of fear.
y shld we discriminate others?
there is no reason to do so.
by working hand in hand, we have built a better singapore.
have u heard of the chopsticks story?
we must work together as one, or we will never be able to achieve anything.
be thankful to have such special friends.
do not hate them becuz u think that they have better privileges than u.
THEY DONT!
they get wad they want becuz they worked hard for it.
and that's a FACT!
it isnt fair to others to show such social discrimination.
it isnt resonable to.

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

lol...long time never post liao
now taking a rest from mugging
so shall post on my very long things

firstly, change blog song AGAIN!
lol..
this song is ting ma ma de hua
basically i like this song becuz its quite touching
if u look at the lyrics
u can go to baidu, www.baidu.com to find the lyrics
it also teaches us to be filial to our mother
and treasure her

secondly, I'M BACK!
3 cheers and 3 cheers to zhijun!
lol
but ya... that's me, back in action
no longer MIA, missing in action

thirdly, i'm getting fatter
need my tt trainings so i can slim down
tt, my world, my life, my soul
come to MAMA!
lol...
must wait for 1 more month to go pass

fourthly, JIAYOU to all 2domers
for the coming exams
we must score well k
we can do it one...
can someone tutor me in chem and physics?
i think i am going to flunk that
will accept orders from my tagboard
price is negotiatable :)

fifth, i am mugging
youare mugging
we are all mugging
and maybe seeing singapore idol at the same time
WHOOTS!
98.7 came to our school
daniel ong was SO cute
lol
go man go ....
he looked tired when he was hosting singapore idol tonite
must be our school take too much energy off him liao
cuz our school is like LENG?

JIAYOU! everyone! :)

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Saturday, September 16, 2006

周杰伦的退后
使我刚换得歌

i'm sorry.
for the flash and the cid.
becuz when wt said can she dun do the flash
and just get one from jingyi
mildred flashed past my mind.
irresponsibility, laziness.
that was wad i thought,
i thought that wt did not want to stay back so she rather not do
and the fact that we have discussed this one week advanced
made me even angrier
then sy shouted.
and my bubble burst.
mildred,xiuhan,wt and then sy
wad was happening
and then i got it
the common factor was that i was inside
so i just started reflecting
and tada... tears came out
i am just sick of myself
nothing seems to go right when i am inside a group
as a leader, a member
its all the same
so i am tired of MYSELF
not YOU
so just let me have this calmity period
where i can just not laugh or smile and just look cool
just let me start reflecting on wad gone wrong.
i noe that being my friends are tiring
i noe that too
becuz being myself is eqaully tiring
akways the best, never the worst
that's my drive in life.
so i am tired of being myself
its not your fault
its mine
so just let me cool down
and let me think
while you all wait for that smile to appear again
i will continue doing the things i have to do
flash and cid
you all can still talk to normally
but the answer you get might just be a nod, grunt or a yes or no
but i will still do the things that is needed for me to do
so dun worry

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Friday, September 15, 2006

对不起。
你不用跟我道歉因为不是你的错。
全部都是我的错。
对不起。
这句话应该是我说的。
我知道跟我做朋友很累。
我不会怪你们离去。
因为是我的错。
我不懂得如何对待你们，所以们都过得很累。
现在，我对自己感到累了。
你们可以走的。
我不会怪你们。
真的不会怪你们。
因为是我自找的。
对不起。
这段时间辛苦了。
好好休息吧。
找多一个人陪你治疗吧。
我配不起，也当不起。
对不起

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我不想强颜欢笑得过生活了。
我不想再当你们得开心果。
我累了。
不想笑了。
不想让别人快乐。
我要变成冰里的女孩。
过着冷漠，安静，孤独的生活。
因为我累了。
不要笑了。
如果这会带个你们不快乐，那么我再次道歉。
对不起，可是我再也无法强颜欢笑了。
因我的脸笑到已经麻了，我也不知道脸上的笑容有多真。
毁坏的沙雕如何重来？
没有用的，因为我已选择封闭自己。
累了，彻底的累了。
芷君毅经过倦了这种生活，你也会的，如果你是我。
你会恨不得的去死，结束你的生活。
可是，我不会放弃，所以我选择了这个选择。
对不起，可是我已经累了。
我什么都不想做了。
我什么都可以还给你。
我只想当冰里的女孩。

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睡醒了。。。
从睡梦中睡醒了，也从范特西从睡醒了。
真实，事实是那么的残酷，那么得痛。
醒来后又觉得累了，有很想回去睡。
想当一个能睡百年的睡美人。
逃避现实。
芷君啊芷君。
醒了就看清楚这个世界。
不要再沉迷在范特西里了。
荟陵跟我说过，
累了就休息一下，但千万不要放长假。
现在想起来，觉得真好笑。
在人生里，你能放假吗？
你要放，也要先看别人让你放吗。
如果真的能够放假，世界上的人都会放假。
累了又怎么样，生活还是要照过。
难道累了，时间就会为了你停留吗?
很希望自己住在范特西里，在那完美的世界没有这么多的不愉快。
在这个世界里可以放很长很长的假。
累了，很累了。
我想消失，就这样消失。
一秒也可以，只要小时一秒也可以。
让我真正体会到安静和平静的生活。
睡吧，睡美人。
忘记痛苦，擦掉眼泪。
让自己沉浸在完美世界里，创造一个跟美好的世界。

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为你的梦想而拼命。
首先你有没有梦想？
很遗憾的说我没有。
可能是梦想对我来说没有意义吧？
可能对我来说我是个没有梦想的人。
因为对而言，我看不到我的未来。
因为未来的我不存在。
我也不懂为什么，我一只觉得自己只是在过生活。
在等待死的到来。
可能是废话吧，也可能我已经过累生活了。
我只知道我的未来没有结果。
所以，我现在把每一天当作我能在世上的最后一天。
珍惜你有的时间，因为你可能突然的从这世界消失。
把你想做的每一件事做好，因为人是不能有遗憾的。
把每一天当作你的最后一天，把你的每一份每一秒当作你的最后是时间。
对你关心的人说你要说的话。
不要让自己后悔。
死是每一个人所要经历的。
只要你珍惜每一份每一秒，没有遗憾，斯对一个人来说就是理所当然的。

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我真的累了，很累了。
我根本不懂你们要我做什么。
我也不懂你们要什么。
一会儿这样，一会儿那样。
你们到底要耍我到什么时候？
你们可能会说芷君很无理取闹。
没错我就是无理取闹。
因为我已经收够了。
我的眼泪不是能一次又一次的控制的。
终有一天，我的眼泪会无忌惮得流下来的。
多强的控制量也没有用。
我希望你们不要再这样了。
因为我累了，无法再和你们玩下去了。
你们要我做组长，我随便。
做后，却对我这个组长没有一点的尊敬。
在你们眼里，我这个组长根本一点意思都没有。
这种生活我过累了。
我已经再也无法忍下去了。
你们到底要我怎么样？
我对你们的所作所为已经关一只眼闭一只眼了。
我已经收够了。
我不是你的玩具，一个给你耍的玩具。
可能对你们来说，我只不过如此，可是我真得很累了。
算我求你们，我真得很累了。
眼泪，是天所赐的礼物。
我不想浪费这个完美的礼物。
因为对我来说，眼泪是放弃的结果。
我不会放弃的。
因为放弃是懦弱的象征。
我只不过是累了，已经累了。

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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

haizzz....so sianz
help jian howe finish his tee design
lol.. i did two
cuz the first one i did abit too girly for the boys to wear
but i like that one
the second is damn simple...
but okay lar
not wad u would call fabulousy nice
anyway nomb
my job is to help me draw only
listening to because of you...
alot of things going through my mind
i am going to change the lyrics of because of you

i will not leave
the class even though you did
i will not let my heart
feel so much pain and misery
i will not leave
the way you did
you broke our hearts
i've learnt the hard way
to never let you get that far
because of you
we will always stay as 2d
because of you
the tears you've left will always be in our hearts
because of you
we learnt the meaning of a class and what we should have always done
because of you
we are 2d

lol...crappy

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

change blog song liao
this song by 李玖哲
the song name is 我会好好过
here are the lyrics

你的爱很像泡沫
太轻或太重
都不在手中
我的爱就像天空
太放或太收
你都只是风
你来过
却爱上自由
你出走
我不问理由
我会好好过
等你再爱我
总有个角落会让你想起我
我会好好过
等你再爱我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守候
你留下很多
够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重
重是爱太多
我会好好过
当你回头
看到的一定是我

这首歌很简单，可是意义深远
希望听了会喜欢

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Monday, September 11, 2006

wth.... stupid messenger... y cannot open one?
lol...
luckily got old messenger
old better
today everyone veri busy must pia speech...
JIAYOU then! :)
listening to 千里之外
veri nice .... lyrics veri meaningful also...
but i feel that only 枫 can make me cry... lolx
todae went to eat kfc with gandi they all...
lol... dunno wad happen to me and my gandi de relationship
getting worse and worse ....
ever since my angel key chain broke...
even though got it mended, the feeling not's the same
oo... bad OMEN! xP
有句话说：碎了，怎么补都没有用。
没错，碎了怎么补都没用。因为感觉已经不一样了。
友情，亲情等等都有一样的道理。

我把我看过的一个故事告诉你吧.
有两个恋人深深爱着对方，他们都认为他们的爱能够超越时间或地点的限制。
男生在他十二岁时收到妈妈格的一个戒指。
银色的戒指，上面还刻着两钓鱼。
妈妈跟孩子说，这个戒指在你遇到一个你真心喜欢的人后，就送给她。
送了之后，就不能要回。
这个男孩把戒指送给这个女孩，愿意和她思守一辈子。
这个女孩有一天不小心把戒指弄不见了，男孩在那一时刻突然遇到车祸 。
女孩辛苦得找到戒指，让男孩看。
可是，一切都太迟了。
男孩已经把女孩忘了，甚至连戒指都记不起来。
女孩最终自杀了。
她始终没有告诉那个男孩她是谁，因为她认为没有这个必要了。
她认为告诉男孩只会把痛苦带给那个那男孩。
她只是很后悔自己走之前没有对那个男孩说，
我们的回忆我不会忘记，希望你有一天也会记得。

sometimes, just tell the people close to you how much you care for them
or it might be too late
becuz time do not wait for the people
so the people must make good use of their time

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Saturday, September 09, 2006

i am feeling veri sianx todae so i shal post post post somemore
bla bla blas... my blog totally being spam by me...
okay... hmm... wad shall i tok about
oya... the sad truth... tomorrow's the first day of school for the new term
*boohoox
just when i was starting to enjoy myself
crappy school!
haizz.... homework's crap, the world's crap... everything's crap
i dunno y but i just feel so tired over the holidays
alot of things are stressing me out
lol... somethings actually quite unnecssary...
for example:
zy and xy will noe what i am toking about, maybe hl will noe too..
all i noe is im tired
from everything
so just freakingly stop it!
anyways... due to yc very violent protest and jennings very violent encouragement,
i am going to change our seats back again...
anyway... there more noisy... even though we normally tok crap..
lol

now all i want to do is to olie down in bed and go back to sleep again..
i wish i could ... but i haven finish chem yet...
lol... my brother's friend going arcade... i wanna go too...lol...but not wif u all
sianz
sianx
sianzz
sianxx
sianxx

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Skin colour: fair, very fair... but i like it that way
Hair colour: brown? golden? along that way lah
Eye colour: brown
Clothes colour: my entire wardrobe is black in colour except for my jeans and one white billabong shirt
Wardrobe colour: brown?

Seven memorable things this/last month:
1) our 2d skit
2) playing b-ball with sinyee they all
3) going wanting house for bbq
4) playing arcade
5) borrowing alot of my favourite books
6) tearing flesh out from the chicken :)

Six people you talked face to face this week:
1) sinyee
2) zhengyang
3) wanting
4) xinyi
5) jingyi
6) desmond

Five things you bought recently:
1) new bag? ( the zinc one)
2) chicken (honey baked)
3) cup noodles (friday go wanting house one)
4) honey stars cereal (WHOOTS!)
5) some seaweed thing

Four people you saw today:
1) erm... my very shuai brother
2) my very shuai brother the shuai friend, Jeremy
3) my very shuai friend the cute friend, Mark
4) my irritating sister
5) my MAMA?

Two things on your mind now:
1) Hungry, eat breakfast?
2) Are they going this afternoon, no one inform me leh... :(

1. grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18 and find line four:
一塌糊涂吧，就算给他勉强超级冷面有点变态吧，智商超高我可是。。。(from this book 恶魔之吻 1)

2. stretch out your left arm as far as you can.
printer?

3. last thing you watched on TV?
the 西游记 reload... around 1 or 2 last night?

4.without looking, guess what time it is:10:45

?5.the actual time?10:39

6.what can you hear with exception of the computer?
my sis watching some lame show and my brother's friend shouting?

7. when did you last step outside? what were you doing?
last evening? go library fetch my bro then go NTUC buy honey stars(WHOOTS!)

8.what did you look at before you started this survey?
my tagboard and messenger list

9.What are you wearing?
clothes? the billabong shirt and a bermudas?

10. did you dream last night?
yes. but forget liao...lol :P

11.When did you last laugh?
just... my brother's friend just did a very weird action :)

12.what is on the walls of the room you are in?
paint? lolx... there's nothing

13. seen anything weird lately?
ya... but cannot say, also heard alot of things that are like so weird

14. what do you think of this quiz?
since i am feeling bored... its okay

15. what is the last film you saw?
i dunno leh... i think it was harry potty ... long time never watch ler

16. becoming a multi-millionaire overnight,what would you buy?
i would buy a condo for the whole family to live in and tickets for everyone to go to Florida to visit my aunt and her family

17. tell me something about you that i don't know.
erm.... chem...maths...physics...like everything?

18.what is one thing you would change about the world?
seperations and changes in our lives

19. do you like to dance?
ya... ballet rocks... they say i got tian fen... lol... i say i just got fen

20. George W Bush... american?
heck... not my problem... not like the terrorist will come and point a gun at my head and say if u dunno whether he is a american a not i will blow ur brains out... unlikely.... :P

21. If your first child is a girl,what do you call her?
ooo... i noe i noe, teacher i noe
小银，云溪

22. if your first child is a boy,what do you call him?
i also noe this one
西振，淳熙，秀哲 hahaz... all after book characters

23. have you ever considered living abroad?
i may... after i finish universtity or junior college...must see my parents

24. what do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
erm....can he say... i now deem u the right to sleep, eat and play all day and not do work?

25. 20 people who must do this in their journal or blog.
i am a very kind person so i shall not 害人

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周杰伦的枫，你听过吗？
每当听这首歌我的眼泪回我会无忌惮得流下
这首歌说出我的感觉，我藏在心底很久的话，一直不敢说的话

乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠过天边北风
掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
在山腰间飘逸的红雨
随著北风凋零
我轻轻摇曳风铃
想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

对不起，很对不起

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从前从前，有一个很小很小的女孩，问了他的妈妈月亮到底有多远？他的妈妈他说如果想知道就因该当一个太空员，寻找答案。这个女孩就为了这个答案， 勤奋的读书，最终找到了答案。如果你们去问你们的父母月亮有多远他们会说什么呢？

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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

hahaz....
yesterday was so fun
went bbq
then we play play play
shall not say to much or u all will get jealous lol
haizz...
so tired
feel like sleeping liao
today at first got tkk
then the ah seng never call so heck lar


有人说，人生在什么时候结束并不重要。
最重要的是你怎么过人生。
我觉得这句话讲得很好。
看了世铭的博客，我发现这句话有多么的真。
我的人生过得很充实。
你可能会问我，你凭什么说很充实？
凭着我又一群很好的朋友，凭着我有很多关心我的人，凭着我对自己别人的信任。


2d
一个让我真正明白人生的班。
能够在这个班，我意识到了很多人生观念。
我意识到了朋友的重要性。
没错，我在这个班里经历了我这13年来没有经历过的事。
在这个班，我哭过，笑过，也让我看清很多事情。
我们从一个被人瞧不起的班，变成了一个人人都赞赏的班。
我们从33个人，变成了一个班。
我们每一个都随着时间的道路成长了。
我们每一个开始珍惜彼此，不让他们消失。
朋友是什么?
借你东西，给你骂的就是朋友吗？
朋友是在你最无助的时候，在你最需要人的时候，在你身边。
朋友是在你没有做功课的时候被处罚，会和你一起站出来被处罚。
朋友是不管你遇到什么困难都会站出来帮你的人。
朋友是在你被人欺负，站出来给那欺负你的家伙一拳的人。
这就是朋友。
一生一世的朋友。
我们2d就是一生一世的朋友。
我们永远都会记住对方的朋友。
因为我们是2d。
人人赞赏的2d。
我的生活会那么充实是因为有这些朋友。
问问你自己吧?
你的生活充实吗？如果是，那么又为什么呢？

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Monday, September 04, 2006

haizz...
gone to the library the past few days
just needed the peace and quiet there
i feel kinda sick and tired of everything
everywhere i go, i just feel tired
dunno wads wrong wif me
dun feel like going anywhere
just going to the library
haizzz...
wad in the world is happening?
i dun know and i dun wish to noe...
is this me?
i dunno either.
lol...
stupid silly idiotic me
haizz... realli feel like going for training
'cept that no one will 'pei wo'
i need to 'fa xie yi xia'
or i think i really want to 'feng diao liao'
haizz...
is this wad i want?
is this wad i know?
wtf am i toking about
lol
getting crazier by the moment
DEEP BREATH ZHI JUN
YOU CAN DO IT
JUST RELAX AND DO UR BEST
for wad?
ermm... i dunno either
lol....
crazy me toking to myself...
really getting crazy liao
must sleep...
i think i sleep too much lor
i spent half the day sleeping
wake up at 1 pm in the afternoon...
hmm.. maybe that's my problem..
LOL
STOP TOKING TO URSELF
THIS IS NOT NORMAL!

Breaking the Habit!

Sunday, September 03, 2006

i change my blogskin
feel that the previous one didnt fit my feelings now
nowsaday feeling very depressed
dunno y also
i just feel like i'm stuck in a small dark room and i cant get out
no one there to save me
just me and me alone
hiazz..
dunno wads going on in me nowsadays
shld be becuz too stressed liao rite
there is no reason i'm thinking about him
becuz i have already forget
really forget
rite, zhengyang?
你能骗得过全世界，你却骗不了你自己。
因为只有你知道发生什么事。
不要躲在一旁哭，因为这只会使你更加难过。
不要为自己感到可怜，因为这是你自找的。
你选择骗这整个世界，可是你要记得你永远骗不了自己。
为何要选择逃跑，不选择面对。
难道你就这样任命吗？
你干本还没开始拼斗，就已经放弃了。
这不是我认识的你。
someone told me this
maybe its true
but who will understand the pain of facing up
to ur worst nightmare?

Breaking the Habit!

Saturday, September 02, 2006

原来我还是很喜欢他
我放不下
也不能忘记
我和他根本不可能的
可是我就是那么的喜欢他
我觉得还傻
好痛苦
我很希望我根本没有看过他
我真的放不下
我的心在滴血
一滴一滴的血
我不懂要怎么做
每次看到她我都很想哭
每次听到那首歌，我都会哭
为什么我会爱上一个我不该爱的人？

Breaking the Habit!

Friday, September 01, 2006

haizz... haven update for a long time...
went to cut my hair today...
so sianz
i feel like going to play ball but no one wanna go
y?
its so fun!!!

okay, shall talk about yesterday!
yesterday was the best!
2d simply rox!
our skit rocks the show
every blog that i visit say so!
yesterday after i reached home
i suddenly felt like crying
the thought of 2d seperating made me wanna cry
i thought up of this little thing
in the little classroom in rvhs
33 people were there
unfamiliar, afraid and scared
they spent their first day there
slowly, they mingled, chatted and had lots of laughter
and they grew into class
after many obstacles
they realized that they cannot be without one another
everyone held a place in everyone's heart
they KNEW they could never be seperated
they LEARNT to appreciate each other
they ARE as ONE
they ARE one WHOLE
they ARE 2D!

Breaking the Habit!