Wednesday, August 30, 2006

slacking now...
waiting for the rehearsal
hope it goes well
wondering where to get the clothes for li jie???
cant we just wear jeans???
lol... pity desmond
must put pillow in his pants
to make his butt look bigger
haizz..
the guys are now watching something that apparently shld be funny
yah
then we are getting like scolded
haizz... dun care them
when is the rehearsal starting?

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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

wad the hell
i am very very mad mad mad
the gist of the story
my whole damn family stole my hoard of bacon
and FINISH EVERTHING
WITHOUT even telling ME
wad the hell
when i couldnt find it today
i when to ask my mother
and then she started saying as though it was right
we took it and eat
then i said without telling me?
yes, of course tell u for wad
then i got so mad i started scolding her saying that u could have at least told me and this is counted to be POLITENESS
FK HER
then she go complain to my father and i am waiting for him to scold me
WHERE'S THE LAW?
I GET SCOLDED FOR SOMETHING THEY DID WRONG
FK THEM!

okay, cool down...
i got the answer i have been looking for, zhengyang
and the answer was that he liked her too
sad arh
haizz...
when she told me i was okay
there goes my 0.001%
now its a -100% = wishful thinking!

CLASS, just settle the damn skit okay!
PLEASE
I BEG YOU
T.T

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Monday, August 28, 2006

so i asked for this didnt i
having such a stupid idea to have a skit
thinking that the class is bonded enough to show the whole school
but what do you noe.
i was wrong
stupid me just thought that everyone will just cooperate
WAKE UP ZHI JUN
NOT EVERYONE WILL COOPERATE
YOU CAN ONLY BLAME YOURSELF FOR BEING SO FOOLISH
ya, foolish me
sacrficing my time, my studies for this skit
wad did i get?
NOTHING
i get scolded for being lame enough to sign us up
i get scolded for changing the damn script
i get scolded when you all couldnt memorise the script
i get scolded when i beg you all to rehearse once more
YOU ALL TALK BEHIND MY BACK
DUN THINK I DUNNO
"YOU SEE, ZHIJUN ANGRY AGAIN.
SHE VERY UNREASONABLE ONE. ANYTHING LITTLE THING SHE WILL BE ANGRY'
EXCUSE ME!
SO SORRY TO INFORM THAT MS ZHIJUN WAS NOT ANGRY!
i was just scolding myself for being so foolish to have dreams that WE CANNOT ACHIEVE
i was just feeling the disappointment i had in 2D
i was just trying to keep my tears from falling
i was just finally understand my foolishness

You all say that you have exams to study for
you all are very busy and this skit is lame
your computer games at home are more important
HELLO
i am no SUPERWOMAN okay.
dun i have exams too?
i also want my free time
do u think i want to spend the entire day just doing this stupid piece of crap
THE WHOLE SCRIPT WAS WRITTEN BY ME
the amount of time i did to amend it and write it
the time that i sacrifce in order to do this
the marks that i sacrifice
while you are just happily continuing playing your computer games.

you noe what, dun bother coming to say sorry to me or to any other 2d members who were there when they were supposed to be
becuz SORRY doesnt mean anything
EXCUSES doesnt mean anything
so you say sorry
when u say that
the only thing i feel like doing is to punch you in the face
SORRY
is a word that brings disappointment in anyone
SORRY
shows that you dun really feel that you are wrong
AND WHY IS THAT SO?
BECUZ SORRY IS JUST A WORD
EVER HEARD OF ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS
you feel sorry then you prove it

i seriously feel my mistake in signing us up for this
i remember how happy we were when we knew we got in
i remember how we swore that we will prove to the school how united 2d is
but wad do i get now
STUPID PIECE OF SHIT
as the wise always say
learn from your mistake and never repeat them again
2d should never ever join things like that again
becuz all we always get are EMPTY PROMISES
PROMISES DAT DONT MEAN ANY SHIT

i really am getting enough of this,
me and the foolish idea
wad was i thinking about?
u noe wad,
I QUIT
i dun wanna do this anymore
SAY THAT I AM IRRESPONSIBLE WILL YOU
fine i am irresponsible
and y becuz you all will not cooperate
i dunno really care how F***ing irresponsble i am now okay
without my main actors i have nothing
absulotely nothing
u all just dun sense the importance of this
u all just take it as a burden
a useless burden
FINE!
u all will settle it yourselves then
becuz I
cant take it anymore
I
dun wish to cry again becuz of this
I
dun wish to feel the stupid idiotic disappointment i am feeling now
SO
I QUIT!

* you all only applies to "SOME" of the skit members

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Thursday, August 24, 2006

hahaz!
todae is a high day!
we went for the rehearsal!
and i think we did well!
terribly vulgar today while waiting for our turn!
I WAS SO DAMN GOD PISSED!
but it was woth it!
cuz 2d roxs,
i am really proud of you guys =)

shall blog about my feelings today!
hahaz... i think i forget liao!
zhengyang, i forget liao
I THINK!
but i am still happy!
i am no longer forcing out a smile!
i noe... its hard
but i will try
becuz i have to remember.
no use telling him
becuz i feel that i will just feel even worse!
BUT I AM HAAPPI! =)

I HAVE RECIEVE EXTREME GOOD NEWS
WE GOT IN
WE GOT IN
WHOOTS
WHOOTS

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

hahaz
todae in a very good mood
dunnoe y
maybe becuz i 4get him liao!
hahaz...
shall blog about tt
me and jennings were dancing during tt
then zhu mu said
你们不要跳了！这里是球场，不是舞场！
lol... make us seem like we in bar like that!
then sherry ask zhu mu
教练，你要学吗？
lolx2 then we laugh laugh
then he told us to shut up...
hahaz... so high
then we were talking about the scripts and how i could improvise
hahaz...
so funny
i only got one thing to say
WE ARE GOING TO ROCK THE SHOW!
hahaz...
then went shopping todae
then saw something
then my bro was pissed cuz i cannot make my mind
then spend a veri long time
cuz "someone" is SO special
that he must be religious (dunno lah... about there)
but finally got something
its only okay...
nvm
ITS THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS! =D

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i think that i have a point in me that i do not noe is good or bad
that is:
i feel very at ease with boys
meaning that i can just talk to them normally
and i treat them all like my good friends
THIS
will lead to every guy who is sitting beside me
to have something to do with me!
i feel that this should be changed
i feel that guys and girls do not have a difference with each other
so i feel at ease
i can beat them like that u noe
THIS
DOESNT
MEAN
THAT
THEY
HAVE
SOMETHING
TO
DO
WITH
ME!
can all u ppl get this into ur freaking heads
wt
i am sick of ppl saying all this type of stuff
THE NEXT PERSON WHO SAYS THIS THINGS
IS GOING TO GET
A SLAP FROM ME
I MEAN IT!

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Friday, August 18, 2006

在雨中的我，很自由。
因为你看不到我为你留的眼泪。
我过得很累很累。
这种日子我不想再过下去了。
我已不是我。
我已经忘了真正的自己。
影子我发现并不是最重要的。
我不应该为了一个连我的生存都不知道的影子感到忧郁。
朋友。
你们在我最需要你们的时候都出现了。
朋友。
你让我看清楚。
你让我了解了真正的自己。
我不明白自己为何要过这种生活。
你说得没错。
这种生活没有意义。
为影子苦苦守候的我
正在过着什么生活？
谢谢你。
你让我看清楚了。
我已经正在遗忘。
那不重要的影子。
对于你要我说的时，
我认为时辰没到，
也认为没有必要说。
正阳，谢谢你:)

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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

i really just want to forget the hurt he has given me
the pain in thinking that he just dun care sucks
wad am i going about these days
i am not who i am
y must i be like that
我要做影子
大家有没有听过影子的道理
你越想得到影子的时候
他偏偏不要让你得到
你越不理他的时候
他却粘着你
影子的道理蛮真的吗？
for those who cannot see
change to unicode (UTF-8)
忘记可能吗
他不知道
我也不想说
这段友情我不想失去
我不想成为一个没有影子的人
影子是人的最好伙伴
他能让你不孤独
但是他却常常带个你很多不愉快地回忆
影子啊
你虽然不知道你是谁
但是我只想跟你说一句话
谢谢你
谢谢你让我明白了人的美和丑是无法改变的
谢谢你让我明白我在你心中没有地位
谢谢你让我明白了影子的道理
谢谢你让我明白了最残酷的事实
谢谢你让我了解我们是不可能的
我不想没有你这个影子
我也无法没有你这个影子
在你心里可能有一个你喜欢的人了
我真心的祝福你们
我会试着没有影子的生活
因为我必须那么做

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

haizz... nowsaday so very sianz
got alot of test coming up
i think that the quarrell between me and jon has gotten worse
i decided to go for the worse
beside blaming him for everything that is wrong
i shall also scold me whenever i see him even near my stuff
eg. my table
but i think he is retaliating
haizz... who cares
i really hate him this much ( hatez.. ... .... .... ... ... 1000% )
i dunno why everytime i think of the sc investiture i realli feel like crying
i kinda feel lost
i feel that i shld belong there but y am i here
yet sometimes i have been constantly reminded that it was my own fault that i am not in the council
i realli want to be back in it again
i feel very wierd feeling outside
not being inside
i see ppl getting blazers
i was thinking that shld have been mine
i realli feel like crying
especially after weiguo's note to me
i feel that i have let everyone down
i feel that i have made the wrong decision
they really wanted me to continue
they all thought i was kicked out
they were so mad about it until they knew that i left on my own accord
have i made the right choice?

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Saturday, August 12, 2006

i keep thinking about that time
i told him all my gandi are all cute and lovable ppl
ppl like him will not get a chance to
only privileged ones...
he said at least i am shuaier then ur gandi-s rite
i *puked* and said like real
u r even worse than them
u scolded me saying that i was no better
so ugly also want to comment on others....
at that point of time i knew
i knew how i was in ur heart
i was just an ugly girl with no limits
i was just someone who was normal... extremly normal
so normal that i was ugly... or maybe i was in the first place
that's when i knew it was useless
i tried to change
but nothing works... that image of me will stay forvever
that ugly image
i realli want to give up now
i am sick of everything
I HATE YOU
i realli dunno wad made me like u in the first place
u were a person even uglier than my brother
u were a person with a worse character than my sister
I HATE YOU
becuz of u i lost everything
my self confidence
i dunno wad to do
i dunno wad to say
i hesistate in everything i do
becuz of u
u made my world crash down
with just one word, one sentence, one moment
u made my world tumble
i dunno whether to laugh or to cry
to finally noe what a idiot i am
to just be ugly

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Tuesday, August 08, 2006

i feel so far fom him
never being able to catch him
he is yet so near from me
but he has never turn once to look at me
i dunno wad to do
i only know my heart is bleeding
with drops of blood dropping down
he is just like the knife cutting slowly into my heart
why must things become like that
i dun noe why either
y subject myself to such pain
when it was unneccsesarily
forget... i am trying to
all i asked was for him to look at me
n he has never done it so far
its just plain wishes
wishes and dreams that will never come true

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firstly i am sorry to those whom i promise my dare
give me abit more time
i will try harder LOL
anyway... todae during the community singing
they were all pulling me and jonathan (jon) to do the dare
then paul lim came
and he stopped everyone
and i think it was becuz he thought u all were beating us up
then i was laughing all the way
to jon: even though u are okay with it, i am still having a lot of problems getting over my hate for u
anyway, got caught by LMM to tuck in shirt and the thing was my shirt was tuck in
haizz... then got some crappy stuff which were very boring... boring .... boring
then the best part was community singing when we managed to have some fun
and also kick and beat mrs look on the way of fun
yah... today was a great day....

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heyhey
so happi todae
2dom-ers roxs
thanx for my bdae presents
i recieved a teddy bear
(from mel, silin, yantong, judith, sm,lb) THANX
i recieved a 10dollar popular voucher
(from gary) THANX 2
i recieved a handphone pouch
(from sherry) THANX 3
i recieved a note
(from dear jennings) THANX 4
and finally
a very huge box of ferrero rocher
(from my very good senior louis - you rock!) THANX 5
thanx to my gandi for the fun we had in his house
finally
U GUYS ROCKS!=D

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