Wednesday, June 28, 2006

haizz i dun really noe what i am doing nowsaday i feel like i am acting in a never ending show with a never ending script my life revolves around others i am sick of this i want to be me THE REAL ME the price i have to pay to be that: everything i have now! selfish that what i feel i am now i dun try to give myself a chance to be the real me becuz i am afriad of losing everything i have got i am afraid of sarcrifices i am afraid that one day it will just be me in that lonely little world of mine i have been acting for so long i think i have already forgotten what is the true me the true me that doesnt need to act the true me that doesnt need to follow others unwillingly i was never like this doing orders just becuz i was supposed to following others just becuz i was afraid of the change i never really cared about all this last time i only cared about my commitments just becuz the betrayal that hit me hard made me knew that the only way to stop change is to never stop lying the masks i put on everyday and no one have ever seen the real me i am sick of living in others shadows i am sick of the way everything has become i hate myself for not being able to stand up tall i hate myself for not being to be the REAL ME

Breaking the Habit!