Wednesday, June 28, 2006
| haizz i dun really noe what i am doing nowsaday i feel like i am acting in a never ending show with a never ending script my life revolves around others i am sick of this i want to be me THE REAL ME the price i have to pay to be that: everything i have now! selfish that what i feel i am now i dun try to give myself a chance to be the real me becuz i am afriad of losing everything i have got i am afraid of sarcrifices i am afraid that one day it will just be me in that lonely little world of mine i have been acting for so long i think i have already forgotten what is the true me the true me that doesnt need to act the true me that doesnt need to follow others unwillingly i was never like this doing orders just becuz i was supposed to following others just becuz i was afraid of the change i never really cared about all this last time i only cared about my commitments just becuz the betrayal that hit me hard made me knew that the only way to stop change is to never stop lying the masks i put on everyday and no one have ever seen the real me i am sick of living in others shadows i am sick of the way everything has become i hate myself for not being able to stand up tall i hate myself for not being to be the REAL ME |
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Tuesday, June 27, 2006
i have a friend
she fell out of love
that got me thinking
how great is her love
love is a big thing
changing ppl and their lives
i told her not to hang onto something impossible
it was really not worth it
but when i said it
i regreted it
i knew that it would not be easy
maybe becuz i dont understand
maybe becuz i just dont know
but i know that love is a great thing
changing ppl and all
must all love end with a happy ending
i really dont know
must all love end with a prince charming
i dont wanna know
i never experience the shock
so i would't say i know
i just wanna say
that it is not easy to forget
someone who held a place in ur heart
but by loving someone
you lose a friend
a good friend that might never come back
so before you decide to say anything
think twice
and twice again
cuz you dun really noe what the outcome will be
and you might not want to know waht the outcome might be
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| i would like to say THANK YOU to a very special someone in my life he is MY TT COACH ZHENG NAN HE U ROCK! XD throughout my year as a c gal we never really knew how to appreciate you but u made a DIFFERENCE in my life i remember the time i WALKED OUT on you i was so angry, frustrated and sad you FORGAVE me for whatever i did and even said SORRY to me when i was at FAULT you never fail to give words of encouragement and you never fail to TEACH us what we wanted to noe we often took our ANGER on you scolding you shouting at you u always FORGAVE us easily THE MOST TOUCHING THHING YOU SAID: Sence: in some wired school LOST THE MATCH CRYING LIKE MAD you said: look, dont cry anymore. you shout and play at every training and we managed to get second others have to train like mad do you think nanyang can be first by just playing all day of course not so you shld be happy END OF QUOTE i am very glad you appear somewhere in my life i am touched that you did so i will never forget what you did for me the money you spent on my GUO TIAO THANK YOU |
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Monday, June 26, 2006
| something to think about: when i was lonely when i cried helplessly u showed up like a superhero pulling me out from my misery u told me that nothing is impossible and to never give up and i finally understood how much a good friend you are in some cases i neglected you i took you for granted ... leaving you in a corner u never blamed me u gave me support instead when i was accused and no one believed in me anymore u trusted me from the bottom of your heart i finally understood what you meant to me u have an irreplacable place in my heart never leaving me for one moment u gave me strenght u gave me trust u gave me support u gave me friendship so, i wont give up no, i wont let go when you said u will be there for me and i will stay strong to hold on to what goes on when i am standing in the dark i'll still believe u are always there for me written by zhijun COPYRIGHT NO ILLEGAL COPYING ALLOWED WITHOUT MY PERMISSION |
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todae was the first dae of school I wanna change place music lesson was BORING i am an xtra there Sherry and Suyu came to my house and ate a box of SOON KUEH my SECOND brother was home wearing his SUPER WHITE uniform from HEAD to TOE at that POINT of time i realize he was quite SHUAI4 even SHUAIER4 then JONATHAN i was STUNNED! XD went to MAC at queensway shopping center SHOP around Suyu bought loads of EARRINGS and DREAM CATCHERS send them to BUSSTOP went home bathe EAT see TV see my brother's FRIENDSTER no PICS that are CLEAR LOVE that one with the BB tee saw other ppl FRIENDSTER do REPORT SLACK WRITING blog XD |
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Thursday, June 22, 2006
whoots! finally can use com...my stupid brother playing maple dunno wanna play how long.... anyway i got one stupid thing that i haven finish and i am pretty mad at it cuz it is quite stupid it is the maths ppt, which is stupid and the fact that we haven started makes it stupidier. i wonder if we can hand it in later?? i HATE MATHS! yesterdae when to the central regional library...\ OMG, i found the 泰迪男å©2, whoots, never expected got book 2, book 1 totally rocks! i found another one but dunno whether got read be4 not....haiz read to many liao, cannot remember! XD cant believe i read one stupid xi you ji need so long, read tai di nan hai2 i spent less than 2 hours :) ,but the stupid xi you ji i keep on sleeping LOLZ, too boring liao (T_TT) HAIZZ, i am so sick of school. i dun wanna go back, how i wish everydae all holidae! (^_*) MY HAIR! my hair is something i am pretty sick of....ppl actually thought i was a guy becuz of my hair... PUHLEES, i so tian sheng mei li, chong ming ke ai, how can sae i guy.... wah , i ku!!! (T_T)anyway, i really dun noe wad to do with it, cannot dun tie cuz at the collar liao, but if tie, need like 5-6 clips to hold it..... i will waste all my money on CLIPS! nonono.....my $6.....($_$) lol, really regret cut so short, dunno wad to do with it now...any suggestions anyone??? or shld i cut again? i liu for so long, i cannot she de one.....my HAIR!!! anyway, i almost finish my homework, except for some ling ling sui sui de stuff, ut the stupid maths project how?? sinyee.....jiu jiu wo ba!!! XD |
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Monday, June 12, 2006
hello, this is zhijun's newest blog.
i noe that u are sick of me changing blogs but who cares, who gave a thought to u anyway?
nar..jkjk, dun get mad at this poor innocent xiaomeimei XD!
mugging to try to finish homework which seems impossible, so i decided to just leave it.
tt training all the way next week so i am wondering when am i able to finish the homework.
msn starts to become irritating when ppl just want you to listen to their wonderful conversations when they dont even talk to you.
U OUT THERE, i am talking about u, so dont irritate with ur stupid conversations unless it is an emergency ( this means if u r dying or i am dying ).
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